I expect him to say something right away. A soft platitude. A brush-off. Or maybe one of those stoic “you did your best” lines that well-meaning assholes like to deploy when they don’t know what else to say.
But he doesn’t say anything.
He justwaits.
Lets the silence be what it is.
Lets me finish without rushing to rescue me from it.
Eventually, I glance over.
He’s still watching me, steady as gravity.
“I keep thinking,” I murmur, “what if it happens again? What if something goes sideways and you’re counting on me and I just… stop?”
There’s a pause. Long. Then?—
“Freezing,” he says slowly, “is information.”
I blink. “What?”
“It’s not weakness. It’s data. It tells you something’s wrong, that something in the situation isn’t matching what your braincan handle. You froze because your instincts didn’t have a play. That doesn’t mean you failed.”
I sit up. “Feels like failure.”
He shrugs. “Then use the feeling. Let it teach you where the gaps are. Where the weight lives.”
“That sounds like a nice theory.”
“It’s not a theory. It’s survival.” He shifts upright, resting his forearms on his knees. “You’re not made of metal, Leah. You don’t have to be unbreakable. You just have to knowhowyou break—and then account for it.”
That lands like a stone in my gut.
I stare at the floor for a while.
“Was it like that for you?” I ask. “When you froze?”
He gives a low hum, almost a laugh, but without humor. “First time I saw a civilian take shrapnel. She was pregnant. I was nineteen. The whole world slowed down. I could hear her scream sometimes.”
I look up.
“Did you move?”
“Not fast enough.”
The air between us thickens. It’s not heavy in the bad way. It’s justdense. Loaded with history, with truth.
With permission.
He runs a hand over the back of his neck. “You adapted. Down here, in this hole, with no clean exit—you’ve held. You’ve watched. You’veacted. Don’t let one memory convince you you’re still that person.”
I don’t know what to say to that.
So I don’t.
Instead, I lie back down, staring at the ceiling again. Watching condensation drip like the world’s slowest metronome.
“Adaptability,” he mutters, almost to himself, “is the only real kind of strength.”