Page 13 of Accidental Blood Lust
I exhale slowly, moving to sit next to Roman at the table. “I think he was jealous… of us. Of our bond.”
“Jare, fuck.” Roman looks pained and a little guilty. “Why didn’t you tell him about why you hate vampires so much?”
“I didn’t think it was fucking relevant. Never in a million years did I think he would go and do what he did. He broke my heart, Roman.”
Roman’s anger and protectiveness show on his face, and I’m sure he’s seconds away from letting his wolf out, so I rub his hand.
“He didn’t mean to. He did it to be closer to me. He just misunderstood the impact it would have.”
Roman nods, rubbing his chin. He’s so fucking handsome and sexy and beautiful that my heart clenches. He was—is—my first love.
“You can’t forgive him?”
I shake my head, playing with the handle on my mug. “No. How am I supposed to live with a vampire?”
“He isn’t them, Jare. You know that,” he says softly.
“Put yourself in my position. Could you forgive it?”
A skeptical look flickers over his face and he waffles his head back and forth like he’s considering the question carefully.
“You fed him. You still love him,” he says, not really answering my question.
“I hate that you know that.” I focus on my steaming drink. “He was dying. Too weak to stand and burned from the sun. He couldn’t heal. I had no choice.”
Roman studies me in that way that makes me think he can see straight through to my soul.
“Stop looking at me like that.”
“Like what?” he asks, lips turning up.
“You know what you’re doing.” Dragging a hand through my hair, I consider my options. I could tell Roman the truth. I usually do, but right now, everything feels so much more sensitive. Talking feels like pushing on a nasty bruise.
“I want you to be happy, Jare. You know that. It’s all that matters to me.”
“That’s obviously not true or you’d be here with me.”
“Jare, come on.”
“What?” I snap, then blow out a breath to calm down. “Could you, um, just keep me posted about Lochlan? I just need to know he’s gonna be okay.”
“Of course he’s gonna be okay, but yes, I’ll keep you posted.”
“Thank you. For helping him, I mean. You didn’t have to.”
“I did it for you. You understand that, right?”
Nodding, I focus on my tea instead of his gorgeous face. I didn’t know it was possible to feel so completely, devastatingly in love with two different people at the same time, but here we are.
LOCHLAN
“So,if I consistently eat at least every two days I’ll be okay?”
“That’s my schedule,” Cassius says. “You have to figure out your own, but that’s a good start. What are the signs again?”
“Paleness, loss of strength, sensitivity to light.”
“And?”
