Page 29 of Hardline Torque
It was about everything.
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The question stayedwith Victor for a moment after Tane asked it.
Is this what you want?
It echoed through him as Tane’s forehead rested against his, as their breaths mingled, as the van hummed quietly around them.Victor had lived most of his life making choices that kept him alive, not choices that made him feel.Want had always been a luxury—dangerous, distracting, easily used against you.
This was different.
“Yes,” Victor said, and this time he didn’t need to search himself for the truth of it.“It is.”
Something shifted in Tane’s posture—not dominance asserted, not control taken, but a grounded certainty that made Victor feel steadied instead of cornered.Tane’s hands came up slowly, deliberately, thumbs brushing Victor’s jaw as if checking in without words.
“Tell me if you need me to stop,” Tane said.“I know I can be intense, and I want you so fucking bad, but I want you to feel part of this journey with me, not that you have to give this to me, or feel obligated to do something.I will not hurt you for the world,ku’u aloha.You want me to stop, and we will, just tell me.”
Victor huffed a quiet, disbelieving laugh.“I won’t.”He shook Tane a little with the hands he had gripping his waist.“Because I want you just as much,kane,” Victor loved the smile and joy that spread across Tane’s handsome face with the use of that word, that could mean sweetheart, but also husband.“I realized tonight that I almost let my fear and my need for retribution cost me what I think I have been looking for my whole fucking life, and I will not allow that to happen.So, no, I do not want you to stop.I want to be loved and to love on you, in any order you please.”
Tane’s mouth curved, not triumphant, not smug—relieved.He leaned in again, and this kiss was nothing like the first.It wasn’t testing or tentative.It was confident and sure, like he knew exactly how much pressure to use, exactly how long to linger before pulling back just enough to keep Victor right there with him and drive his arousal through the roof.
Victor felt himself respond to that steadiness more than anything else.To the way Tane set the pace without rushing, the way he anchored Victor in the moment instead of sweeping him away from it.
As Tane guided him toward the bed behind the partition, they slowly undressed each other.Victor let himself be led—not because he was surrendering control, but because he trusted where they were going and he sure as hell trusted Tane to get them there.
The space felt smaller back here, more intimate.The rain had picked up outside, a soft, steady rhythm against the van that made the world beyond the walls feel distant and irrelevant.
Tane paused, giving Victor time as he turned on the fan and popped the windows open, then pulled back the covers, laying a tube at the side of the bed.When he turned to look at him, Victor was surprised to see a little hesitation in his gaze.
Victor reached out first, fingers curling into Tane’s side, grounding himself in the reality of him.“I’m still here, and I still want you,” he said quietly, the words for himself as much as for Tane.
“I know,” Tane replied.“You are giving yourself to me,ku’u aloha, and I will never make you regret it.”
There was something in that—not ownership, not possession, but presence—that made Victor’s chest ache in a way that felt good.
Tane moved Victor onto the bed, and encouraged him to lie in the center, before he moved their pillows to prop his head up.“I want you to watch as well as feel what I do to you,” Tane’s voice was deeper than usual, filled with an urgency that had Victor’s cock swell even further.
He watched as Tane leaned down, lying between his spread legs, rising up on his elbows.Victor gasped when Tane gripped him firmly with his left hand, then took him in his mouth.
“Blyat!”Victor swore in his native tongue as he arched back, thrusting himself into Tane’s mouth.The feel of his lover’s flat tongue stroking the back of this cock and under the sensitive head with suction at the same time, his free hand beginning to stroke his balls nearly had him coming too damn fast.
“Hmm,” Tane hummed, his mouth vibrating against his cock, making Victor writhe, then pulled off with pop.“Man, V, you taste so fucking good.This just might be my favorite after dinner snack.”
Victor would have liked to have said he didn’t mind that at all, not one bit, but Tane chose that moment to dive back in, and take him to the back of this throat.Victor cried out, reaching down to grasp Tane’s head with his hands.“Christ, Tane, that feels so fucking good.”
Tane pulled off to murmur softly.“Then this is really going to blow your fucking mind.”
And when he returned his mouth to him, Victor felt a warm and well lubricated finger slide around the muscled ring of his ass.He could do nothing but writhe against Tane’s mouth and finger as his lover worked first one, and then a second finger inside him, scissoring his fingers in a way that Victor knew was to help him to be ready to take Tane’s cock, which was not small from the look he got of it, so was a move he appreciated.
He appreciated it even more when Tane began to tap his finger against the sensitive gland, and it was mere seconds, but they were explosively pleasurable seconds before he shot off.He could give no warning more than an inhale and a grunt before he came so hard his back arched off the bed and he swore he saw stars.
He cried out Tane’s name as the man continued to pleasure him, taking him through his orgasm, and every drop of essence that shot from his cock.When Victor became aware of his surroundings again, he could feel Tane licking him clean, making growls of pleasure against him.
“Damn, Tane, that was—Christ, I don’t even have the words for that,” Victor said breathlessly as he remained dragging air into his lungs.
Tane placed one last kiss on the head of Victor’s surprisingly still hard cock, and knelt up, pulled him up onto his hips, putting him in the exact position for Tane to take him.Then, with a few rolls of his hips, and Victor pushing out to meet him, Tane was pressing himself deep inside him.Victor loved the feeling of being so full.
“Is this okay?”Tane asked in a tight voice.
