Page 34 of Controlled Drift
“There’s nothing to forgive,” Niko said.“You never stopped meaning everything to me, and I never stopped wanting you.”
They kissed each other, driving their arousal and pleasure up, but they didn’t rush.
Every touch carried memory—flight school laughter, stolen nights, the way Ethan always breathed a little deeper when Niko touched him just so.
Niko whispered against Ethan's lips."Are you sure you want this?"
Ethan leaned in and kissed him again."I have dreamed of this, baby.I want this more than you can imagine."
Niko moved Ethan and encouraged him to stand by the foot of the bed, and then he undressed him slowly, reverently, telling him with every item he removed how much he adored him.He also kissed as much of the expanse of skin that came into his view as possible.When he was deliciously naked and very obviously aroused, he urged him to sit on the bed.
The Niko stepped back and undressed with more speed than style, but from the way Ethan’s gaze did not leave his body, he was certain his lover still liked what he saw.When Niko stepped into him again, Ethan reached out and drew a hand down the tribal ink he had down his neck, and across his shoulders.
“I dreamed of these,” Ethan whispered.“Such beautiful art.”
Niko smiled as he knelt between Ethan’s legs, tall enough that his head was even with Ethan’s.“I remember how much you loved to travel every curve and line with your tongue.”
Ethan leaned in to press a kiss against the ink on his shoulder.“Usually, on my journey to more interesting parts of your body.”
Niko laughed and cupped Ethan’s face in his hands.“Yes, you were, and you will do that again, but not now.I am so on the edge, just one touch of your lips or tongue on my cock, and I’m gone, and I do not want that.Not now, not for our first time in so long.”
Ethan smiled the smile that was only for Niko and lifted his arms onto his shoulders.“Then, what did you have in mind, baby?”
“First, I just want to kiss you, hold your cock in my hand, learn you all over again,” Niko murmured as he leaned in to press a kiss to Ethan’s soft lips.“Then, I am going to lay you back on this bed, prop up your hips and fuck you, playing with your cock while I rub mine against your prostate and watch as you shatter just for me.”
And then, not letting Ethan process that any further, he leaned in and devoured his mouth, using both hands to play and stroke, and drive Ethan’s arousal to a fever pitch, while he fought to keep his own at bay.
Soon, when Niko was at the end of his patience, Ethan tore his head away with a curse, and moved back onto the bed, pulling a pillow under his head, and raised his hands toward Niko.
“I need you now, baby,” Ethan said in a voice filled with desire.
Niko stood at the foot of the bed for a moment, one hand wrapped around himself, eyes fixed on Ethan stretched out in front of him—open, inviting, watching him with that small, knowing smile that always unraveled him.
It took real effort not to lose control right there.
“You do this on purpose,” Niko murmured.“You know exactly what that look does to me.”
Ethan’s smile softened, something tender underneath it.“I just want you.That’s not strategy.That’s honesty.”
Niko exhaled slowly, reached for one of the pillows, and stepped closer.“Lift up for me.”
Ethan did without hesitation, and Niko slid the pillow beneath his hips, adjusting him carefully until he had him positioned just right.The care in the movement said more than any words ever could.He searched the bedside table for the tube he knew would be there and made use of the lubricant.
Niko’s hand then traced slow, deliberate circles at Ethan’s entrance.Ethan’s breath hitched immediately, his legs falling open instinctively.
“Always so responsive,” Niko said quietly, almost in awe.“Like your body remembers me before your mind catches up.”
Ethan let out a soft laugh that turned into a sigh when Niko’s fingers pressed inside him.“You make it very hard to forget you.”
Niko leaned in closer, voice low.“Tell me if anything feels wrong.”
Ethan met his eyes, steady and warm.“Nothing about this feels wrong.Not with you.”
That was all the permission Niko needed.He took his time, using his fingers to stretch his lover, not wanting to hurt him for the world, only wanting to bring him pleasure.When he judged that Ethan was prepared, he moved into position, notching the head of his cock against the tight ring of muscle of Ethan’s ass.
“Push out, love,” he said through gritted teeth
Then Niko pressed himself forward slowly, hands braced on Ethan’s thighs, watching his face the entire time.Ethan gasped once as Niko filled him, then rolled his hips back with quiet urgency.
