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Sometimes it scares me how much I love you. How lucky I am to have both of you in my life.
You have no idea how many times I still pinch myself, wondering if this is all just a dream. I want to thank you Noah. For loving me the way you do. For helping to heal my broken pieces. You and Caleb make mea stronger, more confident version of myself and for that I will forever be grateful, you give me strength.
You breathed life back into me when I struggled to breathe.
You saved me in so many ways and in return I get to love you, both of you.
And for that, I can’t thank you enough. I love you more than I ever thought possible. Marrying you today in front of our loved ones means the world to me.
Thank you, Noah, for trusting me with your heart and soul.
I love you more than words can say. If love were infinite, it’s exactly how I’d describe what I feel about you.
Yours now and always,
Jessica
I smile to myself as I fold the letters and place them back into the envelopes.
My heart physically aches as I recall the other letter I wrote, the one I didn’t want to write but also knew I had to. There are some things that can’t be left unsaid.
I’m not saying I won’t fight with all that I have when the time comes, because I will.
I want them to know, regardless of space or time, how much I’ll love them. Even if I’m no longer here, I’ll still be with them. As much as they are a part of me, I am a part of them, too.
It fills me with dread, the idea of leaving them, but it would never be by choice.
I know how nothing tangible can live forever.
It highlights how precious life is, why we should celebrate every moment. Each day we’re gifted is a privilege. Age is something to be respected, revered, and appreciated for the gift it is.
My relationship with Jessica and Caleb is the best gift of all.
There was a time I wondered if I’d ever find love like this. I built my walls when I was older, enough to understand boundaries in order to protect my inner peace.
Watching how my dad hurt my mum traumatised me, I still hear her cries. How she tried to hide the bruises while trying to console me, making excuses for him. But all she ever tried to do was protect me, I understand that now.
I joined the army as soon as I turned eighteen, shortly after she died. I would have killed my father otherwise. But karma saw to that, and I hope he’s rotting in hell.
Reaching for the small memory box, I add Caleb and Jessica’s letters and glance at my mum’s locket. Reaching for it, I open it up to reveal the photo of her and me. I wanted to have a piece of her with me today.
Chapter Thirty-Six
JESSICA
I feel like I’m walking on air, everything around me evaporates, leaving only me, Noah, and Caleb.
Like I’m in a dream and at any moment I’ll wake.
Having Mason officiate only makes it that much more meaningful.
We opted for a garden ceremony, with natural elements giving it the perfect rustic charm and an archway with elegant floral drapes at the end of the aisle.
And now I stand between the two loves of my life ready to say our vows.
Mason clears his throat.
“Now, Jessica, Caleb, and Noah, you will each take turns sharing vows. These vows will reflect your commitment to each other, your shared journey, and your hopes for the future.”
