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Not really. More of a dog person, but I don’t hate cats. They just seem very aloof, whereas dogs wear their feelings on their sleeves.
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Yes, if they wore shirts,I joke. For some reason, Eli always makes me feel playful.
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Lol! I had a cat once, a tabby, and she always ignored me. Occasionally, she’d let me pet her. I fed her and cleaned her litter box, and that’s as far as the relationship went.
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And you wanted more?
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Lol! Yes, I did. She was using me!
I smile, not quite sure what to write next.
I expect total openness in my relationships, I guess. I don’t like games,he writes.I like people to show me how they feel, to hold nothing back.
That’s crazy. If I were completely honest and open with him, he’d think I was a crazy woman. If I told him I can’t stop thinking about him, and eagerly anticipate his messages and posts, he’d run away real fast.
It is rather kind of pathetic.
Well, at least I realize I’m being insane, so that’s a start.
I agree,I finally reply.
I don’t like games either. Honesty is one of the most important things in a relationship. I feel a sudden pang of guilt — what I’m doing right now is not very honest. I should tell John about him. I should stop chatting with him. I should probably end this friendship.
That was the problem with my marriage,he replies.She wasn’t honest.
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I’m sorry,I write.
I want to know more. I was just about to end the conversation but he’s reeled me back in with the suspenseful nature of his comment.
She cheated on me.
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I’m so sorry.
I cannot imagine what that kind of betrayal would feel like. I don’t even know how I’d react if John did this to me.
She broke my heart.
I don’t know what to say. I bite my nail as I ponder my response.
Well, I think you need to get out there again. When one door closes, another opens, as they say.
I sound so trite, but I’m just trying to help. And I figure, the sooner he gets himself a woman, the sooner he’ll forget all about me and slowly start to ignore me, which would be for the best. I can’t imagine ever getting bored with him, so he’s the one who is going to have to break my heart.
Oh, I’m not there yet. She’s ruined me.
