Page 58 of Sinful Addiction
“The reasons we don’t have you down in the Sanctuary with us,” Jon butted in.“One, we really don’t like other men looking at you.And two, we get busy a lot and would have to leave you alone.I wouldn’t say our club was dangerous.There are always a few that like to cause trouble or enjoy hurting someone.”
“Isn’t there a place I can wait for you that would be safe?”
Jon and Koa shared a look.
“There is,” Jon started.“All the subs sit in an area by the bar.It has several sofas and chairs.That’s where the single Doms go to find one.”
“But what about a collar?I heard that a few times that night,” Mina told them.
Koa nodded.“We’ve got one.It matches our rings.”
She glanced down.Their rings were beautiful.A line of diamonds ran around them, and then another line next to it was sapphires.
“We use our birthstones.I’m diamond, April, and he’s sapphire for September,” Jon explained.
She looked from one to the other.“What’s the matter?You both look upset.”
Jon cleared his throat.“If we collar you, baby, it’s a big step.It’s the equivalent of marriage in the kink world.”
Her insecurities started pushing forward.She really hadn’t thought of marriage, but she thought eventually they’d get around to asking her.Now she wasn’t so sure that’s what they wanted.
“I can’t just wear a regular one?”
“We’d want people to know you’re ours.”
She looked down at her hands.Was this a way to get out of taking her down?Or were they just telling her they didn’t care about her enough to make a commitment?What else could it be?
She sighed and started scooching toward the end of the bed.
“Where are you going?”Koa asked with a scowl.
“Bathroom,” she murmured.
“But we’re not done talking,” Jon informed her.
She stood at the end of the bed and faced them.“What more is there to say?”
Both men noticed the tight tone of her voice.
She turned and walked into the bathroom, gently closing the door behind her.She leaned against it and closed her eyes.She had a big decision to make.Did she leave or take what she could get of them?Either choice was going to break her heart sooner or later.
She used the toilet and then turned on the shower and stepped in.She held her face up to the spray and let the tears come.She bit her lip as she tried to hold back a sob.
She tried to think logically.They hadn’t been together for very long, so she shouldn’t expect that kind of commitment from them.She tried to convince herself that living the way they had been with her in their rooms and them down in the Sanctuary would be okay for a while longer.
Another sob caught in her throat as she rinsed the conditioner out of her hair.
“Hey, are you okay in there?”Koa asked.
She jerked.She hadn’t heard him come into the bathroom.“Yes, I’m about done.”She tried to sound normal but didn’t know if she’d pulled it off.Her eyes snapped closed when not one, but both men joined her in the shower.
Koa grabbed her shoulders and pulled her out of the shower spray.His eyes narrowed.“Why are you crying?”
She started to shake her head.“I’m not...”She knew from the looks in their eyes that they knew she was lying.
“Mina, you’ve just earned a punishment.Do you want to go for two?”Jon asked.
She felt more tears build, and she couldn’t hold them back.They pulled her into their arms and let her cry.It took a few minutes to regain control, but she finally did.
