Page 114 of Our Pretty Darling Psycho
He handed me leverage—the soft underbelly, the thing the world sneered at, the boy who flew before he learned to armor himself in degrees and distance.
For a man who measures every disclosure like a chemist measures poison, it’s the most reckless thing I’ve ever watched him do.
Did it without being asked twice.
I have no words. For once in my over-articulated life, I have absolutely none. So I simply stare at him, and let my face do what it never does, which is tell the whole truth.
The owner breaks the spell, because legends are also menaces.
“Well, hot damn,” he says, slow-clapping with open glee. “He really hasn’t lost it.” He looks between the two of us—at whatever is written all over my undefended face, at the way Lucien hasn’t stopped watching me—and his grin sharpens into something knowing. “Oh, this is rich. She’s gotta be the one, huh? The chosen one. The one you’re finally gonna pop a ring on after a lifetime of being colder than my walk-in freezer.”
Lucien huffs, reaching for his shirt, the armor sliding back on button by button. He doesn’t deny it. That’s the first thing I notice—he doesn’t deny it. Then, quietly, while he threads a button through its hole, not loud enough for performance but not quite low enough to miss, he says it.
“I’m hopelessly in love with her.” A pause, the next button. “She’s our favorite obsession. There’s no ring large enough to encompass the matter.”
I pretend I didn’t hear it.
In that instant, deeply and studiously fascinated by a nearby lyra hoop, examining its rigging with the grave concentration of a structural engineer, as though the confession floated past me unregistered, as though my heart isn’t doing something frankly humiliating against my ribs.
Because if I acknowledge it—if I let him see what those words did—I will purr.
The literal, mortifying, Omega-instinct purr that I have spent my entire fractured life refusing to give anyone, the soft contented rumble that means a creature feels safe, and wanted, and home. And I am not—absolutely not—going to stand in astranger’s studio and purr like a kettle because the coldest man I’ve ever met just admitted, while buttoning a shirt, that he is hopelessly in love with me.
So I clench my jaw, and I study the rigging, and I lose the battle by approximately half a degree, the smallest treacherous vibration escaping before I crush it flat—and when I dare glance up, Lucien is watching me with the faintest, most insufferable curve at the corner of his mouth, having heard it, having catalogued it, having filed my unraveling away in that locked notebook of his where he keeps every secret I accidentally hand him.
The infuriating part—the maddening exception—is that I want to give it to him.
The purr. The surrender.
After a lifetime of swallowing the sound, of refusing to let a single Alpha hear that particular admission of safety, every fractured self I own is straining toward this man who just turned himself inside out in a stranger’s studio to hand me back a piece of my own soul.
Genevieve wants to purr because she feels safe. Vex wants to withhold it because withholding is power. And somewhere in the noise between them I am simply a woman standing in the gold light, undone by the discovery that the coldest person I have ever known has a furnace at his center, and lit it, once, just so I could warm my hands.
“Don’t,” I warn him.
“I didn’t say a word,” he says, perfectly serene, sliding his glasses up his nose.
“You’re thinking it loudly.”
“I’m thinking a great many things loudly,” he agrees, and offers me his chalk-dusted hand, and the wall is back up but it isn’t the same wall, not anymore, because now I’ve seen behindit and we both know it. “Come. The man taught half the world to fly. Let him teach you something you don’t already know.”
I take his hand.
And I do not purr, no matter how hard the wretched instinct claws at my throat—but as he leads me onto the floor, into the gold light and the chalk-dust and the first home I ever made for myself out of nothing but gravity and spite, I let myself smile where only the mirrors can catch it, a hundred fractured reflections of a woman who has just been handed back two things she thought the world had stolen for good:
The art, and the truth of the man who brought her here to find it.
CHAPTER 27
~Vex~
The last of the evening class trickles out into the dusk, gym bags slung over tired shoulders, and the owner flips the sign on the door with a wink in my direction before vanishing into his back office with a pointed lack of subtlety that tells me precisely nothing and absolutely everything.
I assume the date is over.
That’s the reflex—assume the good thing has an expiry, brace for the lights to come up and the magic to be packed away in its case. I reach for my bag.
“Leave it,” Lucien says.
