Page 148 of Filthy Beautiful
She waited, but I didn’t answer that.
She pressed her hand gently to my chest… and it was like embers prickling my skin. Every hair on my body stood on end.
“It felt right when you were in my bed,” she said.
I cleared my throat and laid my hand over hers, removing it from my skin. “Come sit down,” I said, my voice all gravelly and strange. I led her over to the couch and sat her down.
Then I sat on the edge of the coffee table, facing her, and leaned forward with my elbows on my knees to cover my hard-on. “Listen to me, Courteney.”
She sat neatly in front of me, waiting.
So I gave her the talk. The one I’d been practicing in the shower for days now.
At least, I tried too.
“You’re… a beautiful girl,” I started. “You’re very… special. Any man would be lucky to… have the chance to be with you.”
She stared at me in silence, waiting.
“But you do not want to fuck me.”
She didn’t even blink. “Yes, I do.”
Christ.She was not making this easy. My cock fucking throbbed. Her soft lips. Her pretty face, up close… Those soft, honey eyes, blazing with purpose.
“No,” I said. “You really don’t.”
“Why do you keep telling me what I want? I know what I want.”
“I’m not the right man for you.”
“Are you good at sex?”
“What?”
“When you fuck girls, do they like it?”
I shut my mouth. No way was I touching that one.
“Do they come?” she pressed.
I didn’t answer that either.
“I want to have sex,” she said. “I’ve never had sex before. I mean, other than when you ate me out, and—”
“Don’t. I don’t wanna hear you say it.”
“Youate me out,” she said, slowly, while I ran a hand over my face and just tried not to hear the words coming out of her mouth. “And you put your fingers in me. And it felt really, really good.”
“Court—”
“So I’m here right now because I’m an adult, I’ve never had sex, I want to have sex, and I want to have it with someone who knows what they’re doing and who actually, you know, cares about me. Not just some random guy from the bar or Tinder or whatever.”
My jaw spasmed and I clenched my teeth.
Nope. I still wasn’t down with that idea, either.
“I choose you,” she said.
