Page 67 of Dirty Like Zane
Zane
She loves me.
She admitted it tome…
She fucking lovesme.
After Maggie left, I lay in bed in her hotel room for a while. It wasn’t like lying in bed thinking about her was a new experience for me, but this time I definitely had new food forthought.
She.
Loves.
Me.
When she didn’t come back to her room, I calledher.
She didn’tanswer.
I tried to sort through all the shit she just told me. But all I could really think about was the only thing that really sank in; the only thing that really matteredanyway.
She lovesme.
* * *
Eventually,I dozed off. When I woke up mid-morning, Maggie still hadn’t come back. I checked my phone. No missed call from her, nomessage.
I sent her a text, then got up and went to my own room. I lay in bed, wanting to sleep some more. We’d been up all night and I was still tired, but I couldn’trelax.
So I smoked some weed, and I thought about what she said to meagain.
She said she lovesme.
I thought about all the shit that had gone down between us over the past two years… seeing it in a different light. Reconsidering everything that had gone wrong with the knowledge that Maggie lovedme.
That maybe she’d loved me allalong.
I thought about how, after we’d gotten married in Vegas, there was that long and difficult nine months of cold war, heated fights, and the occasional angry fuck. Until we screwed the night of Jesse’s wedding, almost a year ago now, and something changed. Maggie seemed to soften toward me, alittle.
After that night, I’d tried like hell to get her back into bed, to recapture that feeling between us. To make her give in to me again, the way she did thatnight.
The way she’d looked at me, for just a moment, when I was insideher.
The way she’d said myname.
The way she’d begged for my cock as shecame…
And a few times, I’dsucceeded.
But things stayed pretty rough between usanyway.
Over the phone, we argued when she wouldn’t see me. In person, she’d been careful not to be alone with me, to keep conversation professional.Neutral.
Though sometimes, I’d still managed to get heralone.
And when I did… the result waspredictable.
Me and Maggie, inbed.
