Page 53 of Finding His Happiness
“Some people find sucking to be mentally relaxing. We can work on finding other things for you to suck on if you want to explore how that feels.” He was trying to sound relaxed but there was something in his voice.
“What are you thinking?” The last time he had that tone it’d been connected to him thinking about phone sex.
Master’s chuckle said I was right. “You’re learning to read me very well. I was picturing situations and objects where you sucking would be erotic.”
Oh.
“I know I’m not supposed to put my thumb or things like pens in my mouth. I don’t forget that social rule.” There could be new ones, though. “What...what kind of social rules does BDSM have around sucking on things?”
“It depends on what parts of BDSM someone is exploring.” Before I could ask about the options, he continued to explain. “For you, I was thinking about a dildo or even seeing what you thought about a gag that just kept your mouth feeling full.Littles generally like binkies, although that varies between each person.”
He was very good at giving examples.
“I think I would like to explore oral activities like that.” What else could I tell him? “Sucking on your cock was very relaxing.”
“I’m glad. I enjoyed the way you were gagging around it and it seemed like you didn’t mind that either.” Master’s tone made me think he was smiling but I was still obeying the “eyes closed” order.
“I didn’t mind it.” I’d done a good job at it. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.”
It showed I’d done a good job with my research.
“I really did. It’s something we can do again on another date.” Relief rushed through me when I realized he wanted to see me again. “Do you want me to leave your cage on or take it off?”
My cage.
“I don’t have an opinion.” That sounded like a bad answer. “You said explaining when I didn’t know something was still good behavior.”
“It is. You did a very good job letting me know you were at neutral. I’m going to leave it on because I like seeing you caged. It’s a very clear reminder that you belong to me.” It almost sounded like his voice was caressing over me, but it wasn’t overwhelming. It was nice. “Visual reminders that you’re my sub give me the same feelings as touching you. So I’m going to keep you naked unless you ask for clothes.”
Visual reminders.
“A red ass from a spanking would be a visual reminder.” What else? “Collars and other forms of restraints would probably give you the same feelings.”
“Don’t distract me.” Master’s dramatic groan made me smile. “Now all I can picture is how sexy you would’ve looked bent over for me with my handprints all over your ass.”
I wasn’t sure if thinking he was cute was reasonable, but he made me want to smile. “You’ll have to try it and see which type of kissing you like better.”
He made the silliest sounds.
“We’re definitely going to try that.” As I wondered how that would feel, he let out a soft hum. “Do you want to take off your cuffs or do you want me to remove them?”
Oh.
“Um. You put them on.” How did I feel? He’d want to know that. “I think...let’s try you taking them off. That’s the most logical answer.”
“Okay. Hold out your hands.” When I moved them into position, he did the deep breath sound again, so I obeyed because he was very set on making sure I was getting enough oxygen. “First one.”
My skin prickled from the soft touch around my wrists, but it wasn’t bad. “What color are you, boy?”
He needed my color...that was a big part of my role. “I’m green.”
I could do this but I had to admit to feeling less prickly once the second cuff was off.
“All done.” Master still seemed relaxed and nothing in his voice made it sound like he was frustrated. “Open your eyes and focus on my face.”
Simple orders were very nice.
His neutral expression was nice too.
