Page 97 of Claim Me
I walk over to Blue’s desk and, right in front of him, toss Benny’s business card into the trash even though I feel kind of guilty doing it, because Benny didn’t do anything wrong. He’s probably a perfectly great omega.
He’s just not…
Blue.
Is that really what this is about?
Fuck, I just don’t understand myself anymore. Maybe I’m simply an idiot. Blue doesn’t want me! He set a very clear boundary. And I’m throwing away an actually good chance at building a real life with someone nice.
But there’s this huge part of me buried deep inside that’s completely convinced Bennyisn’tmeant for me at all.
That it’s someone else.
"Benny’s going to be disappointed," Blue says, finally looking up at me. "It was a good match."
I hold his gaze for a second.
And I realize that Blue’s entire reaction, despite mostly being irritated, is subconsciously expressing exactly what he seems to feel.
He wasn’t happy that another omega found me attractive.
Why? Good question. Does that mean this small opening leading to him, which I keep sensing in his energy, is actually workable? Even if he would never admit it, but today… Blue was simply jealous of Benny.
Speaking quietly, I answer him, "I do feel bad about that, but I already told you before that I imagine my first time happening with the perfect person at the perfect moment, and I just know he’s not the right guy for me."
A moment of silence passes while our eyes stay locked.
"Sometimes lowering your standards a little is the only way to get something out of life."
"Is that howyoulive?"
Blue blinks like the question genuinely caught him off guard.
Slowly, he looks away.
"No. That’s not how I live."
"Then you understand me."
Blue leans down and pulls Benny’s card back out of the trash.
"I think you should text him. It’s the decent thing to do. There’s no reason to hurt people who haven’t done anything wrong to us."
I bite my lip again.
Wow.
That's surprising.
Even though Blue clearly hated the entire situation, he still wants to be fair to the other omega? I honestly don’t know if I’d be capable of that in his place.
For a moment, we look into each other’s eyes, and there’s something unusual in this exchange of energy.
The way he behaves… that speaks well of Blue’s character, and, paradoxically, it makes me like him evenmore. He’s not petty and he doesn’t want to harm other people.
"You’re right. I’ll tell him the truth. That I’m interested in someone else."
Another silence falls between us.
