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The thoughtful expression again. Does he think about the fated mates possibility? Could I hint at that, maybe?
"I’m not that surprised, to be honest. I believed in our chemistry," I mutter vaguely.
Blue doesn’t take the bait. So I decide to leave it at that.
What are people even supposed to do after a first-ever blowjob?
I’m hard again, but I’m not about to draw attention to it. I stay quiet, desperately searching for something else to say. I also don’t want to come off as bragging or showing off over so magicallyhelping him overcomethat massive block.
Blue keeps being quiet too, most likely analyzing everything that just happened, maybe even overanalyzing it.
Suddenly he blurts out, almost in a nervous, high-pitched tone, like he just remembered he should say something, considering it was my first time,
"I appreciate all that you did today, and your enthusiasm, Gabriel. I have no way to compare it, but I’m fairly certain it was… skillful."
"What matters most is that you liked it," I reply quickly, because the tension in him has clearly crept back a little.
Blue pulls up his pants and buttons his shirt. I want to say something more, get some reassurance about where we stand now.
Are we… the secret boyfriends thing he mentioned? In an exclusive relationship? Testing things? Is this it, is this on?
But I have no idea how to phrase it.
Also I don’t want to sound overly romantic, since he emphasized it's just an experiment and there’s no chance for love confessions, but I don’t want to stay in silence either.
Blue slowly sits up. I sit up too.
Damn, this is awkward.
So why not just say it? Why not make it part of our interaction and normalize it? Screw it.
"Awkward, right?" I let out a small, slightly dumb laugh.
To my surprise, Blue chuckles too and sighs.
"Totally. I’m good at a lot of things, but this part… I’m a rookie. It’s weird."
Even that short exchange takes a lot of nerves off both of us, like letting air out of an overinflated balloon.
Then he adds, his tone lighter now, "I’m like a teenager when it comes to this."
"So maybe we just don’t worry about it? Let it be awkward until it stops being awkward?" I shrug.
This may be an opportunity to change the topic to something less heavy. "So, what now? Wanna go for a swim?"
Blue raises an eyebrow. "In the ocean? What about sharks?"
"Maybe there aren’t any around."
Blue makes a face, then sighs. "Right. Maybe! Fine, we can swim."
I glance at our suitcases nearby.
"Do you want me to step out so you can change, or… are we going all in and changing in front of each other?" I grin.
Blue narrows his eyes slightly, challenge accepted, I guess. "Let’s change here."
We both start undressing. I don’t try to hide the fact that I still have an erection. Blue’s eyes drop to my crotch and he freezes for a moment.
