Fuck. That was a long time—too long for someone so beautiful. And while I didn’t know her exact age, there was no way she was any older than 25, which meant she’d been young when she closed off this part of herself. That was the only answer that made sense, considering how everyone seemed to react around her. Without asking for attention, people seemed to flock to her.
“Di-did something happen?”
“No, no,” Kinsley insisted. “Honestly, it just wasn’t high on my priority list. I’ve never really had a lot of interest in it, never needed someone, until…” Her eyes searched mine, finishing the sentence for her.Until you.
I cleared my throat, “We should slow down, Kins. I don’t want to hurt you?—”
She lifted off the bed and captured my mouth with hers. Her nails dug into my back as she arched against me, beckoning me closer. My hands found her hair, needing her just as much. If she wanted to stop, there was no question—I’d stop. But it would hurt like hell to let her out of my arms.
As she pulled back, Kinsley’s fingers found my jaw, stroking me. “Keep going, Jace. Please. You’ve made me feel more in one night than I have in years.”
“What are you saying, Kinsley?” My hands tightened on her hips. “Be explicitly clear, because I don’t want to mess this up right now.”
She smiled up at me, “I want you to fuck me, Jace.”
NINE
“I want you to fuck me, Jace.”
My hands shook as Jace stared at me, drinking me in until he saw right into the depths of my soul, searching for any lies in my breathless words. He wouldn’t find any, but my nerves still rattled against my ribs.
I meant what I’d told him. In the past, sex had become an afterthought, one in a long list of experiences I sacrificed for the sake of my education and survival. Not to sound conceited, but I’d had plenty of offers over the years—college friends who suggested ways to release some tension, other bartenders who wanted to celebrate the end of the shift in style. However, sex required trust, a willingness to let someone see you at your most vulnerable, and that was a line I refused to cross.
But with Jace, handing my trust over was as natural as breathing, as if he’d owned this part of me before our paths ever crossed. I didn’t know what it was about him that made me so willing to drop all my defenses, but it terrified me. Not enough to leave his bed right now, but enough to make me tremble.
I tried to hide it, but he noticed, and his fingers traced the lines of my jaw, forcing my eyes to meet his. “Are you sure about this?”
“Please, Jace.”
As his eyes searched mine, my entire body throbbed with anticipation. I needed this man to get inside me, or my head might implode. Jace continued to track every tick of my face until he sighed and pressed his forehead to mine.
“We’ll go slow,” he promised. “If you need me to stop, just say so. I don’t want to hurt you.”
He shifted over to his bedside table, pulling out an unopened box of condoms. I swallowed as he peeled off his shirt and shucked his jeans and boxers away. God, the muscles on this man made my brain numb.Obviously, as a professional athlete, physical fitness was a job requirement, but seeing him on the screen was nothing like being with him in person. I reached out, running my fingers down the planes of his abs. My throat dried up when my eyes darted down, taking in the size and girth of his cock. Shaking my head, I looked up at him. “Seriously?”
Jace chuckled as he stroked himself and then sheathed the condom over his impressive length. Shit, maybe I wasn’t prepared for this. It had been a long time since I’d had sex, and the first couple of times weren’t the most pleasant experiences. There hadn’t been that blissful moment when the pain faded away into pleasure. Instead, it had been uncomfortable and put me more on edge than ever before.
As he moved toward the bed, Jace stared down at me, like I was offering him so much more than my body. He tugged on his length again, lip tucked between his teeth. Jace leaned down and nuzzled along my neck, and a shiver coasted down my spine. “Are you worried about me fitting inside you, Kins? We’ll take as long as we need to get you there.”
“Promise?” I said, hating how broken my voice sounded.
He reached out and cupped the back of my head, bringing our foreheads together. “More than anything. I want this to begood for you too.” He pulled back to search my expression. “You ready?”
He waited until I kissed him, claiming his mouth as if it belonged to me. When we parted, I closed my eyes, waiting for the intense pressure, but Jace took his time. Instead of bursting through my defenses, his fingers entered my core, stretching me until another orgasm built inside me. His lips never left mine as his thumb found my clit, strumming circles as his fingers continued to explore. A gasp left my lips as I hurtled closer to the edge. “Jace…”
“That’s it, baby. Just relax and come for me. Promise I’ll always make it good for you.”
His hushed words against my skin pushed me over the edge. My nails dug into his shoulders as he kept thrusting, not slowing until the rush passed. But as soon as my climax stilled, he was there, waiting with his tip at my entrance. His dark blue eyes searched mine before he pushed inside me.
A stuttered moan escaped from the back of my throat as he worked himself deeper, taking a little more with each thrust. His lips continued to caress my skin, from my neck to my jaw and back to my lips. “You’re doing so good, Kins. Taking me so well.”
“Jace…” I cried out as he tormented me. The pressure faded away, leaving behind a craving I’d never experienced before. Between the gentle brushes of his lips and the languid way he shifted inside me, I needed more. My hands reached out, pulling him tighter against me. My nails dug into the flesh of his ass, and Jace let out a surprised laugh.
“Keep doing that, and I’m going to lose all control. Trying to go easy on you, baby.”
I shook my head. “Don’t. I’m not going to break, Jace. I can take it.”
“You sure?” I dug my nails in a little more. Jace hissed under his breath and then leaned back on his haunches. “If it gets to be too much, you tell me.”