Page 101 of Kind of Famous
They did play some unreleased material, and that would be the gold in my article and a huge hit at my forum. But they mainly played songs off their latest album, all super polished and professional.
I couldn’t help but compare the experience to the rehearsal with Shane’s band, a band I hadn’t followed as closely, and yet, they’d set a bar no other band would reach. And the reason for that wasn’t the music or the performances or even how welcome they made me feel. It was simply Shane’s joy at having me there.
And for the first time, I almost regretted choosing this over the boy who’d given me those shy smiles when Noah had first accused me of being a super fan. Turns out maybe Noah had been right. Maybe my priorities were completely out of whack.
What was I doing here? Was this really worth losing Shane over? Surely Lars would understand if I didn’t follow through. This wasn’t even my real job.
Everyone I knew online would be eating their hearts out with jealousy if they knew where I was sitting, but all I could think about was how lonely I was going to feel when I walked out with a camera full of videos and nobody to go home to.
As the band wrapped up, I thanked them for giving me such an incredible opportunity, hoping my gushing sounded as sincere as it would have been just a month earlier. I did appreciate them donating their time, especially since they didn’t need to at all, kicking myself for having mixed emotions on a day like today.
What the hell was wrong with me?
Once I got back to Jo’s, I set to work writing the blog and editing videos. Once Lars gave me the go-head, I posted the article on theRock Paper, then went over and stared at a blinking cursor on my own site, trying to figure out how to word my unmasking.
At Adam’s suggestion, and cleared by Lars, I planned to write an exclusive for Talking Disaster to coincide with the magazine article. By mentioning my site in the magazine, I’d already given the game away. My fans didn’t need to be spoon-fed clues on the worst of days. They’d connect the dots in a heartbeat. Still, writing it out on my own blog felt like a huge confession. One that would invite a ton of questions and open the door to the kind of scrutiny I’d tried to protect the band from.
But it was time to come out from behind my moniker and own my double identity. It was time to be Layla.
Talking Disaster Forum
Topic: Walking Disaster - Media - The Rock Paper - Fly on the wall - Page 2
AdamAnt wrote:
Hey, she mentioned our forum.
Di$a$ter wrote:
She didn’t just mention it. She said she runs it.
AdamAnt wrote:
Shit, is that Pumpkin?
Talking Disaster wrote:
Gotta be. Hey, Pumpkin! Say something!
Wannabe wrote:
Did you guys hear the new song?
DiazRules wrote:
What did she mean by more to come? Do you think there are more videos, or is she going to come give us a recap?
ADAMate wrote:
Pumpkin!! Bravo! I love seeing our community mentioned in the ROCK PAPER! OMG!
InTheMood wrote:
Wow, what a bounty of WD goodness.
AdamFannnn wrote:
Thank you Pumpkin/Layla for making me almost feel like I was there. It sounds like it was a most wonderful time. I love the new songs! I also loved Adam’s between song banter.
