Page 57 of Walk With Me
Becca, being Becca, hadn’t wanted to break down in front of Bella in case it made her feel bad about leaving. I didn’t realize how close they’d gotten. Becca is absolutely smitten. Apparently, they have a connection that renders all her other relationships null and void. We stayed up until the early hours talking. It felt good to air my worries about college, too. We’re all in the same boat, and it sucks.
I was looking forward to senior year, and it’s started off great, but now I know the ending is going to be heartbreaking. Not just for me, but for all my friends. Even if I hadn’t started dating Eden, my conversation with Becca has made it clear we are all going to lose something precious: each other. Becca, my squad, now Eden and her crew, are special. They’re a part of my life and in a few short months, they’ll be gone. Scattered all over the country.
It was a sobering conversation. I’ll admit it made me question my decision to date Eden. For a moment I wondered if the next few months would be worth the awfulness of leaving her, but then I pictured her face, and I know thereis no other choice. I’ve felt a pull towards her for years. I’d end up regretting it more if I didn’t experience being with her at all.
We also have the option of long distance. It’s too early to know if we’re up to the strains of that, but I can’t rule it out. She’s already such an important part of my life.
Eden’s mom told us to be in the here and now, and she’s right. If I spend my time panicking about the future, I’m going to miss out on precious time with my people.
Speaking of my people, Becca is looking much better this morning. She stayed over and spent the night kicking me in the kidneys, but that’s fine. We drove to school via our favorite coffee shop. I was sad to cancel my morning walk with Eden, but I plan to make it up to her this evening. Hopefully we can explore some more boundaries.
Bella is waiting in the parking lot when we arrive. Becca practically sprints out of the car to get to her. There’s no hiding it now. Half the student body is watching as Becca launches herself at the much shorter Bella.
I take it upon myself to break them up when their kiss turns way too hot for 8 a.m. They whisper to each other as we head inside. Hopefully Becca will tell Bella how she’s feeling. I intend to do that with Eden. I want all our cards on the table.
“Morning, babe,” Eden says as she steps up behind me and wraps her arms around my waist. I suddenly feel the urge to cry. It must be the emotional residue of talking with Becca.
Spinning in her arms, I descend on her lips. The bell rings in the distance, but I’m not ready to let go. The pressure of her tongue against mine leaves me breathless. My hands snake up to her hair and scrape against her scalp. One or both of us moan. Suddenly, being in the here and now with Eden is the only thing on my mind.
“Skip class with me,” I hear myself say. I’ve never skipped a class. Ever!
“W-where do you want to go?” she mumbles against my lips. Her hands have travelled south and are resting just above my ass. I want nothing more than for her to grab my butt.
“Follow me.”
There is a well-known spot behind the equipment shed where kids go to get freaky. I’ve never been there myself, so this is going to be a new adventure I can tick off my senior year bucket list.
We rush to the side of the building and out of view from any prying eyes. Breaking the rules is quite exhilarating.Eden hasn’t let her eyes drop from my body for a second as I drag her to our destination.
Rounding the equipment shed, we fall against each other and resume kissing. My back hits the wall and my leg lifts, hooking around her hip.
“God, Sloane, you drive me nuts.”
“I know the feeling,” I force out. “I can’t get enough of you. Please grab my ass.”
Eden pauses for a second but does as I ask. “Like this?”
Her hands drift down confidently, and she cups me completely before squeezing and drawing me ever closer. A very sensitive part of me is rubbing against her jeans.
“E-eden. That feels so good.” I’m hoping she gets my meaning. The stutter in my voice surely tells her I’m becoming excited to the point of no return.
“Does…does it count if we’re not naked? If I don’t touch you?”
Eden’s question makes me pause. Enough that I push her shoulders back slightly so I can look at her face clearly.
“Is this something you want?” I manage to pant out. “I don’t want you to do something you’re uncomfortable with or will regret, babe.”
She takes several deep breaths before answering, “I want this.”
Biting my lip, I give her an extra second to change her mind. She doesn’t. Her lips brush softly over my neck. My leg tightens over her hip.
With a couple of tentative rolls of her pelvis, I feel myself arrive right back where I was a few moments before. Close to tipping over the edge. I can’t believe we’re doing this.
As teeth scrape my skin, Eden’s breath picks up until it’s matching mine. Her hands squeeze me harder. The zipper of her jeans presses against me at the perfect spot, and I’m helpless to stop the build. Her hands haven’t even touched an inch of my skin, and yet it’s like I can feel them all over me.
I’m totally lost to the rhythm of our bodies. It’s happening.
“I…I’m…”
