Page 44 of Don't Date Your Ex Best Friend
“I ...I have wanted a baby for a while.Jake and I broke up and I am thankful for that.But then I saw you yesterday with Eveline, and I knew that?—”
“You wanted my sperm inside you?”I asked, my brain still processing all of it.
Her cheeks flushed, and she looked down at her plate, her hair covering her face.“Yes,” she muttered.
I stayed silent for a while and frowned.“Why didn’t you try it with Jake?”
Kiara looked at me and tucked her hair over her shoulder, giving me a full view of her cleavage.I clenched my jaw and listened to her, “We wanted to wait for the marriage.”
I raised my eyebrow.
She continued, “We never had sex.We decided together that it would be better after the marriage ...and you know the rest.”
“You guys ...never had sex?”
“Yes, Ethan.”
“Huh.”
I leaned back in the chair, staring at her.I could never understand how Jake controlled himself when he was with Kiara.Just sitting across from her made me want to splay her across the table and ravish her.
“Why didn’t you look for insemination?”I asked.“You could have asked my mothers.”
She shook her head, “I have researched about it and really thought about it, but I don’t want a baby through insemination.”
I forced a smile.“Right.”
Kiara winced.“No, Ethan, I—look, I didn’t mean it like that.I am asking you because you are a great person and you have been nothing but nice to me since we met.I appreciate everything we have together, and ...”her cheeks flushed, “I would love to have a baby who is like you.I would be honored to have that.”
“No.”
I don’t know why I was angry all of a sudden.
Her eyes snapped at me, “What?”
I tilted my head and glared at her, “I said no.My answer is no, Kiara.”
I wanted a kid, to have my own children, but not right now.I wanted to settle down with a woman I love, marry her, have our own house, and then think about kids.Having kids right now didn’t settle with me.I had always used protection during sex.Only with Kiara, I didn’t use a condom because she was on the pill, but after she left, I always used protection.
“Can you at least think about it?”
I shook my head, “No, Kiara.I don’t want to have kids with you or anyone right now.”Shit, I didn’t mean to sound so angry when I said it.
Kiara’s eyes turned glassy, and I hated myself when her lower lip trembled.
“Bella,” I tried talking to her.
She swallowed the wine in one go, my eyes widening when she glared at me and stood up.
“What are you doing?”I stood up, watching her leave her credit card on the table even though the cheque was already paid, “Kiara, where are you going?”
She turned to me, giving me a saccharine smile, “Don’t wait up for me, I will catch a cab and probably arrive tomorrow morning.”
Kiara left me without waiting for my reply.
Fucking great, Ethan.
When Kiara left,I stood there waiting and wondering what I could do in this situation.I needed to have some drinks before asking Anya where she could have gone.I didn’t want to even think about her having a one-night stand with a stranger and arriving at the house tomorrow morning.
