Page 5 of Don't Date Your Ex Best Friend
You broke up with Ariana and ended your friendship with Liam.I wanted to let you know I felt the same emotions you were feeling when you realized that the person you had feelings for was sneaking behind your back.I held my tongue because Liam and I had shared just one kiss and I am sure it meant nothing to him.I wanted to fight him and as always; you held me back.
But I can’t believe that my stupid drunken self-told you how I felt about you.It just tumbled out of my mouth.We were dancing.We were alone.We were grinning and happy.I can still remember the way my skin scorched wherever you touched me.
I still can’t get over the fact that I said I love you.
Thank God you were drunk and didn’t remember it the next day.But I did.And I hid it well.There’s at least one thing I am good at.
I am glad we didn’t kiss each other.Because I was already in panic mode when I said it and ...I am sure I would have told you everything.
Hai Bhagwan.That was a mess.
Well, now you know how I feel about you.How I have always felt about you since you punched Paul Corey and bought me ice cream, kissing me on the roof with your cold lips.I didn’t tell you because it would steal you away from me as my best friend.Our friendship mattered more than a stupid emotion called love.But then Ariana happened, and you were so happy with her.So, I swallowed my jealousy with my feelings.
I don’t want to lose you, E.That’s why I will ignore my feelings until they go away on their own.Fingers crossed.
Love,
Kiara
CHAPTERTHIRTEEN
5th July, Thursday
I guess our age and hormones are taking a toll on us.
I had written six thousand words last night and slept at four in the morning, so I was pretty exhausted throughout the entire day.But it got worse after a little talk with Liam.He wanted me to tell you about the day I tried ...you know what I mean.I ignored it and had to shut myself in a washroom because warm tears were sliding down my cheeks.
In calculus, you kept me awake by poking my arm in school.Thank you, Ethan.I couldn’t stop thinking about our slow dance, my drunk confession, and not to mention you wanted to feel my breasts, which was funny.
We saw each other naked for the first time.
Not that it will ever happen again.
But it was brilliant.I mean, you are the first guy who has seen me naked and by your flushed face, I could only wonder if I was the first female to see you naked.I can’t believe I saw a dick for the first time in real life.Unless you count Paul.I will not talk about it because that’d be awkward.
We skinny dipped.We were having so much fun and I almost told you to kiss me and you would have, but Katherine interrupted us.
I swear, I wanted to kill her for cockblocking us.But what you did at the dining table topped it off.You teased me and it was like you were a whole new person.
I hope you were happy after teasing me and not letting me eat.That was just plain rude.But I love you anyway.
Love,
Kiara
CHAPTERFOURTEEN
9th July, Monday
You slowed down.Again.Just when you were about to win, you let Liam win.
Why, Ethan?
You think if you don’t tell me, I won't know.Well, you are very wrong.We grew up together and I know when you’re lying.The pupil of your blue eye goes small like a dot, making your lid twitch on the side when you lie.Yes, I know I stare at you a lot, that’s why I know that but don’t act like you don’t like me ogling at your handsome face.
But, ignoring that, something happened today.Between me and Liam, which got you riled up in the end.I am sorry, even though I know it won’t change anything.
When I went to talk with Liam today, he was angry at me because I hadn’t told you about me ...trying to end my life.He would have told you and ended it then and there.I panicked and just snapped, arguing with him as if it would have solved anything.
