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Terror wrapped around my chest. “What about them?”
“When we found you in the pool that day, you left right after they came outside. After this place was broken into, you agreed to come to our place as soon as Val came into the kitchen. At dinner a few days ago, you barely spoke to them, and they pretty much ignored you. It was them, wasn’t it? That made you feel like this?”
My throat closed. It hadn’t done that in a while. Since I’d been with them. Now I couldn’t find my voice at all. I tapped my throat and shook my head.
“Okay,” he said. “That’s fine. Maybe you can tell me about it someday.”
I nodded and cuddled my face against his shoulder once more. One day, it would be good to have someone else know the truth. Right now, I wasn’t ready.
“Are you coming home?” Brooks asked. His voice was full of hope.
It took long seconds for my throat to ease enough to speak. “Yes.”
“Okay,” he said. “If there’s anything we can bring with us, let me know. We’ll take care of the rest of this soon.”
I started to move, but he held me fast. “In a minute. I don’t know that I can let you go yet.”
That was completely fine with me. I didn’t want him to let me go.
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
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BROOKS
Ilet the door to the apartment close behind us and tugged Rin to a stop. “I’d like you to spend the night in my room. If you’re all right with that.”
“Yeah,” she said. “I’d like that.”
She’d forgiven me, but forgiving someone didn’t heal the damage instantly. I still felt the hurt in the cracks between us. Cracks I put there.
I barely remembered saying anything because I was so deep in the fear oflosing. But it didn’t matter. The look on her face?—
“I’m going to take a bath,” Trinity said. “I’ll find you after.”
“Okay.”
It had been a couple of hours between me getting to Trinity’s apartment and us clinging to each other. Even so, the guys were all still in the kitchen, clearly waiting for us to come back. They rightfully handed me my ass the second she walked out the door. I already knew I’d fucked up. I just hadn’t known how much.
Logan was eating a bowl of cereal. He looked me up and down. “You guys okay?”
I nodded. But it wasn’t the whole truth. I braced myself against the marble island. “Fuck.”
“What happened?” Theo.
“She thought—” emotion choked off my words, and I had to clear my throat. “She thought we wouldn’t want her anymore. Because she yelled.” I pressed the heels of my hands into my eyes, fighting the heat building there.
I almost made us lose her. The look on her face, like I’d broken her heart. When Ihadbroken her heart. The sheer hope in her eyes when she realized it wasn’t over. The guilt felt like claws tearing at my insides.
Trinity and I would heal. I would do whatever I needed to make that happen. And I would move past this feeling. Clinging to guilt could poison things in an entirely different way. But for these few minutes? I was going to let myself grieve and shatter for making my Omega feel that kind of pain.
“Why would she think that?”
“I have some ideas… mainly Cecil’s pack. She also said it’s the way it’s always been. She said ‘I speak and fuck up everything.’” I swallowed. “I’m sorry. I owe you all an apology, too. It doesn’t matter where the outburst came from. I almost made us lose her.”
Bastian approached and placed a hand on my shoulder. He knew exactly why I’d reacted the way I had.
“I’m sorry,” I said again.
