Page 66 of The Lion Duke's Proposal
The afternoon heat had softened. A gentle breeze rolled across the lawn, carrying the scent of damp earth and crushed lavender from the base of the stone wall, where a single bumblebee moved through the purple stalks with great, single-minded focus.
She had not expected today.
When she woke that morning, she had carried the same low-grade, exhausting tension that had lived in her chest since that evening in the study.
For four days, she had been forced to guess which version of Leander would appear at breakfast. The man who had held her face in his hands, or the cold, shuttered Duke who spoke only of tactical moves and legal arrangements.
To protect herself, she had held her posture at a careful remove. It was simpler that way. Removals were easier to maintain than total abandonment. She had deliberately taken her volume of Fielding out to the grass to avoid the suffocating weight of the question entirely.
Then he had appeared on the terrace steps with Anthony and Benjamin. The boy had marched straight to her bench without a single polite preamble, and within twenty minutes, she had been aggressively arguing about wind direction with her husband.
It had felt dangerously like the house party. It felt the crowded ballroom, and the dark, breathless paths of the labyrinth. It was the version of him that existed before the transactional rules of their wedding dinner, before the four days of icy silence, and before she had learned to pull herself away.
Worse, he had let her win.
She had known it with absolute certainty by the third round.
Leander was precise by instinct and entirely economical by habit. His final three throws had been neither. He had thrown wide, his posture deliberately loosening, and she was far too observant to let the shallow thrill of winning blind her to the calculation of his losing.
She had not called him out on it. She had simply saidhah, looked down at the grass, and refused to meet his eyes. Looking at him at that exact moment would have required her to arrange herfeatures into a mask of indifference she was no longer sure she could command.
The trouble was that she did not know what to do with the warmth.
When a man explicitly tells you on your wedding night that your marriage is an operational necessity and nothing more, you do not prepare a place for tenderness. She had no shelf for it. She had spent the last four days trying to build one in her mind, only to find the material shifting and crumbling every time he looked at her.
Underneath that confusion, quieter but far more persistent, lay the other threat.
Her father’s last note had been brief and clear:
Wait for word from me.
The official word had not arrived yet, but she knew it would. She understood the precise architecture of Viscount Norish’s correspondence by now.
First came the vague warm-up letter, then the urgent follow-up, and finally the ask. The true, desperate point of the entire exercise, which invariably arrived third. The ask was coming. She could feel it tracking her down.
When it landed, she would finally know what he wanted from her. And she would be forced to decide, all over again, whether to take the letter to Leander the moment the wax seal broke, or to sit with the secret first.
Whetherfirstwould eventually becomeinstead.
She told herself she would tell him. She had confessed to him before about her father's debts, and it had been the right choice. He had received the truth without judgment, wrapping his protection around her like armor.
She told herself that now, watching the bee disappear into the lavender, and noticed with a cold spike of dread that she did not fully believe her own internal promise.
That was the knot she could not untie.
It was not a matter of whether she trusted Leander. Her thoughts had moved a tremendous distance on that front, far more than she ever dared to admit. But her father was still her father. Whatever sins he had committed, whatever ruin he deserved, Julia had been managing the catastrophic consequences of his existence for so long that the instinct to handle this latest threat privately was as automatic as pulling air into her lungs.
It was an old, protective reflex. She did not know if she possessed the strength to override it when the time came.
She would like to think she would.
Beside her, Benjamin stirred in the iron chair. He grunted, pushing the oversized wool hat off his small face, and blinked against the bright afternoon sun. He looked up at her, then settled his shoulders back against the iron slats, thoroughly satisfied at her being there.
His eyelids were already fluttering shut again.
Julia looked back toward the heavy glass doors of the house. The low, unhurried murmur of the two men continued to drift out into the heat, steady and constant.
She would tell Leander.
