“Yes! Yes! Please!” she begged. Her fingers inched lower, and Luke knew he’d be lost if she got anywhere near his dick.
He grabbed both of her wrists with one hand and pinned them above her head. The position made her arch her back slightly, and her eyes opened wide at the change, but he didn’t give her a moment to adjust. Instead he moved his fingers faster and increased the pressure on her clit until she was shaking.
“Oh, sunflower, I have dreamed nearly every damn day of fucking you. But I’m not going to right now.”
“Why?” The word left her mouth as half a plea and half a demand.
Luke curled his fingers again and witnessed her orgasm for the first time. Johanna squeezed her eyes shut as her mouth fell open and she cried out for him. Her legs tightened around his body like he was the only thing keeping her on this planet, while her pussy spasmed around his fingers, gripping them for dear life as if it could somehow take them deeper.
He groaned, his eyes rolling back in his head as he imagined how fucking good it would feel to be inside that hungry little thing, how it would feel to own her, to drown in her wetness and taste every inch of her skin. Luke was famished for her. She was his every wish, every fantasy, every desire, and as Johanna came down from her high, he withdrew his fingers and sucked them clean. He moaned at the taste of her. Saliva pooled in his mouth at the thought of more before she broke him from his train of thought.
“Why?” she asked again, her voice softer, breathless.
Luke ran his fingers up and down the inside of her thighs, wishing he could rip her pants off and enjoy her fully. Her breath hitched as he drew a digit over her flesh, teasing from her pussy up to her clit and back down. She shuddered, and when he slowly slid it inside of her, she let out a hum of pleasure.
“When I fuck you, sunflower, I will take everything from you.” He slid his thumb up and down her clit, rubbing the nub as she gasped. “I will take every noise you make, every look you give me, every breath you breathe, every sensation of your skin, every emotion you have, every thought, your blood, even your very soul. I will takeallthat you are in the same way you have consumedeverythingthat I am.”
He slid two fingers into her, drawing another moan from her lips. “And even after I’ve taken all of you, I won’t stop. I won’t stop until we’re so tied together that I’m in your veins, Johanna, until you couldn’t get me out of you if you tried.”
“Luke!” she moaned.
He kissed her until her lips were red, even with his healing magic. He sucked, and nipped, and teased them until they parted, and then he explored her mouth with his tongue, drinking in her taste while he fucked her with his fingers. Luke showed her exactly how he would be with her, and even when Johanna came, he didn’t stop rubbing his tongue against hers, nor pressing, rubbing, even pinching her clit, not until she came once more. Only then did this hunger for her begin to calm.
CHAPTER 15
One week. That’s how much time had passed since what Johanna now called ‘The Incident’ at the beach. She still couldn’t formulate what happened into proper words. She never expected Luke to tell her that he loved her, nor to let things get so out of hand. His lips, his touch, being pressed up against him the way she had been, had all felt so incredible, but she never would have expected what came after that glorious experience.
Nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
Luke hadn’t touched her, at least not in the way she desired to be touched. Sure, he rubbed her back, passed his fingers through her hair, and they still cuddled when they fell asleep, but that was it. Nothing else. He hadn’t touched her intimately. He hadn’t kissed her either, and it was driving her mad. It felt like they were constantly playing a game where one of them stood in the middle and the other circled them. Round and round they’d go, getting closer and closer until eventually they switched spots, then the cycle would start all over again. They never seemed to be in the same space. Instead, they were constantly teasing, thinking, or working around one another without being on the same page.
It wasinfuriating.
Johanna understood there were several reasons for this. After all, she was still healing from everything. Even she could see how Luke constantly put her care first, so it made her wonder what it was that he saw in her that made him hold back, and how did she make it stop?
She’d tried to figure it out for the first couple of days, to no avail. Then she thought about what he’d demanded if he was going to fuck her. Every time she thought of those words, her blood turned molten, liquid pooled in her belly, and she could barely breathe, much less speak. But she remembered them, every single word, and she’d give it all to Luke, give him everything he wanted … but he wouldn’t take it.
No matter what she did or how many times she told him she was his, he didn’t seem to believe she meant it. Running out of options, she finally decided to ask Dani for advice. According to her, both of them were incredibly dense, stubborn, and really two peas in the same pod. It was an annoying observation, but one that Johanna did have to agree with—if only slightly.
Johanna had gotten better at voicing what she wanted, at believing she was allowed to want things and to demand nothing less. Yet, until Luke had admitted his feelings for her, she didn’t fully believe it could be possible for someone to love her in the way she’d always craved. It made sense that perhaps Luke felt something of that too. Dani even thought that Luke still blamed himself for what had happened to Johanna and couldn’t believe her feelings because he didn’t think he was worthy of them. That, more than anything else, had spurred her into action, which was the exact reason why Johanna had pushed herself out of her comfort zone and was now lying naked under the covers, waiting for her mate.
An hour had passed by the time Luke’s body crossed the threshold into their room. It was a new game he’d started to play with her—waiting until she’d fallen asleep to join her in bed. That was something else Johanna would fix … later.
She watched as Luke opened a drawer and grabbed a pair of black pants to sleep in.
“What are you still doing up?” he asked as he shut the drawer and turned to face her.
“I was waiting for you.”
Luke moved toward her, causing her heartbeat to quicken. Leaning down, he kissed her forehead and then took a deep breath. When his lips parted, she wished they were on her skin again, somewhere lower.
“You didn’t have to wait up for me.”
“I know, but I wanted to.” The beat in her heart fluttered as she admitted, “I missed you.”
He sighed, brushing his fingers through her hair at her temple. “I’ve missed you too. I’ll be right there, okay?”