Page 49 of Radiant Exception
I could only watch her, releasing a sharp exhale when her fingers wrapped around the sensitive member, giving me a firm pump with her small fist.
She leaned forward. I could feel her warm breath over my cock, before she licked the tip. “What about now?”
My eyes rolled back into my head at the glorious but ominous sensation shooting up my spine.
“You’re killing me,” I groaned, letting my head fall back to the headboard.
“I want you.” Lark looked up at me through her lashes as she took the head into her mouth and sucked.
My entire body was trembling. It had been so long since I’d been with anyone. But I had to remind myself this was so much more than a game. And I needed more than just sex. I needed Lark. “It’s all or nothing, Trouble, you know that,” I pleaded, my voice hoarse.
Her eyes narrowed and she took another strong pull. The girl was going to suck my soul out through my dick.
“Fuck,” I hissed.
Just the image of her lips wrapped around me was enough to have me on the edge of climaxing. I felt my cheeks heat with a blush of embarrassment at the thought of coming so quickly.
She released me. “Let’s just enjoy each other now, and we can figure out the rest later.” One of her palms rested on my thigh; she gave me a gentle squeeze, encouraging me to make my decision.
It wasn’t easy, but I knew what I wanted, and I was going to fight for it. I had to show her I was going to fight for her.
Groaning, I scooted back, tucking my cock into my pants, where it tented them obscenely.
Lark scowled at me, indignant that she hadn’t gotten her way.
I pushed forward onto my knees, wrapping my arms around Lark, fitting her into my embrace like a puzzle piece that had always been missing.
“No.” She tried to shove against me, and I relented, loosening my hold, but she didn’t move away.
I craned my face down, running my nose along hers. “I’m falling for you, Lark. I can’t go further until I know if you’re in or out because neither of us can afford to leave this ship with a broken heart.”
Her bottom lip trembled, but she remained silent.
Fuck.
Lark rarely went quiet. This was bad.
“I’ll give you all the time you need, but please don’t push me, Trouble. I need to protect myself. I won’t survive if I have to walk away after only getting just a small piece of you.” I kissed the tip of her nose.
“I’m kidding myself in thinking I’m not already fucked anyway.” My raw admission burned as it passed through my lips, but I needed to say it out loud, if for no other reason than to get used to it myself. It felt like Lark was slipping through my fingers, and I was helpless to intervene.
Her eyes fluttered open, meeting mine for a brief second, but long enough for me to know she wasn’t there yet. So when she pulled away and started getting dressed, I just watched her from the bed, giving her the space she needed to process.
“Will you be back?” I asked, my voice quiet and sad.
She shrugged, not knowing herself, then left.
It was too late for me. I was too far gone. Maybe giving in to her was the only way to make her see that she needed me as much as I needed her. But was it selfish to hope that she would come to the realization on her own?
I’d never been in love before, and it pained me to wonder if the tightness in my chest, the longing I felt for her as she walked away, and the desperation to seek her out was that elusive feeling that I’d been searching for, for my entire life.
What I did know was that when she wasn’t near me, my heart ached.
“You look like shit, Mrs. Vaughn.” Ethan poked my shoulder as he sidled up next to me in the mess, while I used the food generator to make a poor excuse for coffee.
“Fuck off, Ethan,” I grumbled, grabbing my cup and heading back to the engineering bay.
It had been a long, rough night after Vaughn had refused my advances. Unable or unwilling to face him after embarrassing myself, I’d spent the night in my office in various positions, none of them allowing me to actually sleep. Although maybe it was my conscience that was keeping me from slumber.
