Page 26 of Pushing Styxx
After the day we had, you’d think I would be satisfied, but it seems when it comes to Hope, I won’t ever be. I’ll simply want more and more from her.
“Any of this,” Hope says, gesturing between us. “The fact you own not just your house, but the house I’m living in, being involved with someone, let alone you, having Promise be so comfortable with you and the others, and I’ve barely met them. My uncle and all the drama with him. It’s like everything is going at warp speed around me while I stand still, watching it all. It’s just too much.”
“You feel like everything’s moving too fast for you?” I ask, studying her face for any sign she’s thinking of bolting. The thought makes something dark stir inside me. Hope isn’t walking away, not now, not ever. She’s mine, I won’t lose her.
“I don’t know. Maybe. It’s just . . . I’ve been the only one I could rely on for so long. I don’t know how else to be. I’m not sure how to let someone else take control.”
I slide my hand to the back of her neck, feeling the knotted tension there. “No one is trying to take your control away,mo chathú. I wouldn’t do that to you. The only time I’ll demand that from you is when I’ve got you in my bed. What you gotta learn is that you’re not alone anymore. I won’t do anything I don’t think is best when it comes to keeping you and your sister safe. That’s all I’m doing here.”
Hope sighs, her body relaxing against mine just slightly, her hands curling into my tee. “I know you’re trying to help. I’m not good at accepting help. As I’ve said, it’s always been me.”
“I get that. You’ve been on your own, had to be strong, raising your sister by yourself. But letting someone have your back doesn’t make you weak.” I slide my fingers into her hair, loving the way it feels between my fingers, so soft and silky. “It makes you smart.”
She shifts in my lap, the friction against my cock making me grit my teeth. “I just don’t want Promise to get hurt if this doesn’t work out. What happens to her if we don’t . . .”
I move my fingers from her hair to her hips, gripping them firmly as I growl,”This is working out just fine.” I forgot we’re sitting in a truck outside the clubhouse. “Stop thinking so far ahead. Be here, now, with me.” I didn’t need her to look into the future. I knew what it held and where this was going, but I wasn’t going to scare her by telling her just how tied to me her future would be.
Her eyes search mine, and I can see the battle she’s fighting with herself. Trust doesn’t come easily to her. The stupid games her uncle has played with her over the years have made her jaded when it comes to others around her. The only person she truly trusts is her sister.
“I’ll do my best to stay in the here and now with you,” Hope says, her fingers playing with my tee. Sparks of desire shine in her beautiful eyes.
“That’s all I’m asking for,” I tell her, leaning forward to capture her lips with mine. The kiss is meant to be gentle, a reassurance, but the moment our mouths connect, that familiar fire ignites between us. Hope moans against my mouth, her body pressing closer as her hips rock, her pussy grinds against my hardening cock. The heat of her singes me through the barriers between us.
I break the kiss reluctantly, breathing hard. “We need to get inside before I take you right here.”
She gives me a small smile, the first genuine one I’ve seen since we left the school. “Would you really?”
“Don’t test me,mo chathú. The mood I’m in, I might just bend you over the hood and fuck you in full view of anyone walking by.” I squeeze her ass, enjoying the little gasp that I like to hear. “But as much as I want to fuck you, I also want to see my daughter.” This is the longest I’ve been away from Eabha, and it’s not easy for me. However, I needed this time with Hope just as much as she needed it with me. We needed the time to learn about each other, to fuck, play, and be together without interruption.
“I still need to get to work,” she murmurs.
“I’ll get you there, baby, but I want you here for right now. Harvester’s in there, if you need to leave before I can take you, he can. But I’ll be there to pick you up.”
“If you’d let me have my car, I could just drive myself.”
“We’ll talk about it. Let me look deeper into your uncle first.” I wasn’t about to tell her I intended to track her uncle down and make it clear that his days of messing with my woman were over with. She and Promise were off limits.
“Fine,” she huffs.
“There’s that word again.” I grin and pull her in for another kiss, keeping it short. I had things to do, and though I plan to be inside Hope again, now wasn’t the time.
CHAPTER 13
HOPE
“Girl, don’t tell me that you have both Mr. Hottie and the boss wrapped around your finger now,” Diamond says the minute I walk into the dressing room. “I saw you getting out of Harvester’s truck.”
“No, he was giving me a ride to work,” I answer, shaking my head. “Styxx got tied up with something.”
“And you couldn’t drive yourself, seeing as your car is still in the parking lot,” Trixie adds.
“Yeah,” I agree, wishing I weren’t having this conversation.
“You know the other girls are fuming mad with you right now,” Sugar states, without looking away from her mirror as she does her makeup to get ready to go on stage.
“Why? I haven’t done anything wrong.” I didn’t think I had at least.
“There’s a rule that the guys who are members of the club don’t go for their employees, yet Mr. Hottie has taken to you,” Diamond points out while pulling out an outfit to change into. “Which should I go with? Black cat suit or red devil tonight? Maybe schoolgirl?
