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I swallow hard as he picks up his sandwich and takes a bite.
“Fuck… you were right. This is good.”
He looks up at me, and then sets his sandwich down. He opens his arms with the blanket and nods for me to get closer. So I do. He wraps the blanket around my shoulders and settles against me.
I told him I love him.
He didn’t freak out, but…
He didn’t say it back, either.
That shouldn’t bother me, because it’s never bothered me before.
Maybe because I’ve never really felt love like this.
Maybe I’ve never really been in love before.
Until now…
“Relax,” he says. “I’m not going anywhere.”
I look at him, my heart in my throat.
I don’t think I’ve ever wanted anyone to say those words back so bad in my life.
But I know better than to push. Maybe I’m not the only one who needs time.
So I smile as I steal a fry.
“Better not,” I say. “The sharks come out at night, you know.”
He blinks.
“What?”
I lean into him and kiss him swiftly.
“But only if you don’t share your fries.”
“Fuck you, Trey.” He laughs.
And for a moment I pretend that he means something else.
What’s a little white lie if we’re only telling it to ourselves, right?
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Hudson
Trey has only been home for a week, and he’s already preparing to leave again. He told me he travels a lot for work, but I guess I didn’t realize what that meant. He’s hardly here at all, and though it doesn’t make me regret my decision to be with him, it does suck.
I miss him all the time. We talk and video chat, but it’s just not the same when he isn’t here.
He’s mentioned trying to look for a different position, one that doesn’t require so much travel. I told him he didn’t have to do that, because he loves his job, and his response was to tell me that he loves me too.
Which wasn’t the first time he said it.
It’s not that I don’t want to say it back to him, it’s just that when I do, I want to make sure I mean it fully. I have a lot of feelings for Trey. Big feelings. Feelings I don’t understand. And that very well could be love, but I don’t want to say it if I am not one thousand percent sure that it’s true.
