Page 95 of Apathy
“I’m… I-I…”
He gripped my hips with both his hands, and I knew I would have purple marks to remind me of this night. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.” I placed one hand over his, and with the other one, I started rubbing at my clit.
“Now!” he yelled. “Now, now, no—”
The orgasm shattered through me, muting out any sounds around me. My back arched, my mouth open, but no sound came, my walls holding him in a tight grip. Our eyes connected, and I could see everything I felt reflected in him. The shirt he wore was soaked with sweat, and as he collapsed on top of me, my legs wrapped around his waist, I lifted his shirt and started drawing circles on his skin, reveling in this feeling.
But it couldn’t last.
“I love you, Sky,” he whispered against my ear, making my whole body lock down.
Those words… Those were the words I wanted to hear. Words I wanted to say, but we couldn’t.
I couldn’t.
I couldn’t be the end of him. I couldn’t be the reason behind his demise, so I did what I should’ve done earlier.
I pushed him away, wincing when he finally detached from me. The furrow of his eyebrow told me that he knew something was wrong.
“What’s wrong?” he asked carefully, slicing me with the standoffish way he stood in front of me.
He removed the condom and wrapped it up, throwing it in the bin next to the table.
I pulled my shirt down, and jumped from the table, barely holding myself straight. My knees shook, muscles trembling, but I had to do this now.
Fixing my skirt, I turned around and faced him.
“We need to talk.”
Ash
“This isn’t working for me anymore.”
This isn’t working for me anymore.
Her words echoed in my head on repeat, even after she left the library.
I couldn’t chase after her. I couldn’t hold her to me, like I wanted to, because she managed to escape before I could pull up my pants.
This isn’t working for me anymore.
No.
NO.
This isn’t working for me anymore.
Right after I told her I loved her.
This isn’t working for me anymore.
Right after I showed her what she meant to me.
This isn’t working for me anymore.
Right after I thought that everything was okay.
Fuck.
