Page 53 of Orc'd At A Wedding
The floor counter ticks upward. Bliss is quiet for a moment, and then she says, "The contract is void."
"Yes."
"You cancelled it. Full refund."
"The funds have already been returned to your account." I pause. "The transaction will process within three to five business days, depending on your bank."
"That is such an Olog thing to add right now."
"Accuracy is a form of respect."
She tips her head back to look up at me. This close, with the enclosed space of the lift and the warm low light, her eyes are very dark and the smudged mascara has given her a slightly wrecked quality that my instincts respond to with a volume and specificity that I am not going to catalog in this moment because it will not improve my current level of composure.
"You're off the clock," she says.
"I am off the clock."
"You have no professional obligation to be here."
"Correct."
"And you're still here."
"Bliss." My voice is lower, rougher, without the measured, even cadence I spent three years calibrating for client-facing interactions. "I am going to be here for a significant and sustained period of time. I have already begun planning the logistics. You should factor this into your immediate expectations."
Her expression does the thing. The fighting and the losing.
The lift arrives at our floor with a soft bell tone and I carry her out into the corridor and down to the suite door and I do not put her down to reach the keycard because I have very efficiently placed it in the breast pocket of my jacket and can retrieve it with one hand while supporting her weight with the other. The door opens. The suite is exactly as we left it, the bed made, the single lamp on the writing desk throwing warm light across the carpet,the window showing the dark treeline and the first suggestions of clouds moving in from the west.
I carry her inside.
I kick the door shut behind us.
The latch clicks. The sound of the corridor and the distant sounds of the wedding reception below and the forty-eight hours of performance and social navigation and professional detachment disappear behind a solid inch and a half of hotel door.
"The contract is void, Bliss," I say. My voice is very quiet now. Not because I am being careful. Because there is no one else in this room who needs to hear it. "I am off the clock."
She looks up at me, still held in my arms, the knife warm in her hands between us, her dark eyes steady and unguarded and completely, entirely present, and says, "I know."
"Good," I say.
She holds my gaze for a moment longer, and then she lifts the knife very deliberately and sets it on the bedside table, placing it flat with a small, final sound, and the gesture is simple and it is exact and it communicates something that does not require translation.
I set her down on the bed.
She sits and looks up at me, and the expression on her face has none of the performance and none of the careful management of her family's perceptions and none of the anxious, ticking-clock tension that has been running underneath everything since yesterday morning when a gig-worker notification told her she had twelve hours remaining.
There is no clock. The contract is cancelled. The weekend is over, and we are still here, and what is in her face is just her.
I sit down beside her.
The mattress adjusts significantly to my weight, pulling her slightly toward me by simple physics, and she lets it, shifting theremaining inch without resistance and settling against my side with the ease of something that has already decided it belongs there.
Outside, the first wind moves through the treeline.
Her shoulder is warm against my arm. The knife is on the table. My grandmother's bone handle catching the lamplight, and the evening and the family and the locked restroom and the car park and every moment of the last fifty-eight hours settling around us into something that is not an ending.
It is, I note, with considerable satisfaction, a very clean starting point.
