Page 81 of Regal Feather
Tony
Mind you, most of what I know comes from Jaime and María, but I would say I have a good sense of who you are as a sub, and how much you’ve grown since you joined Plumas. I was there too, many of the times a scene went wrong and you had to pick up the pieces. It hasn’t set you back in years, but when I was there on Monday? It was like having a flashback to that first year where you were insecure and couldn’t pick a kink to try out at any given time
Ev
I just don’t want to overwhelm him more
And, I mean, yeah, the thing with Sir Ismael affected me more than usual
I guess I was more invested, and thought it was real
Or sub-frenzy?
I don’t know
Tony
You do realize not all dynamics start off as an experienced Dom (or top, or however you wanna call it) and a less experienced sub, right?
You have more experience than him. Take advantage
Ev
Wouldn’t that be like Domming him?
Tony
So it’s the two of you who get hung up on semantics. Sure, you can say it’s Dominating someone if you ask them to kick your balls until you’re gasping for air on the floor, but who’s going to end up in serious need of a first aids kit afterward?
Ev
It’s more than that, Sir
Maybe I’m selfish, but I don’t *want* to do that
I mean, yeah, I wanna talk about what I want and don’t want, but I don’t wanna *tell* him exactly what to do
Tony
Then find someone else who does it, Ev, because that guy might worship the ground you walk on, but he’s begging for direction just as bad as you are
Ev
You think that’s fine? Like, he won’t hate me?
Tony
He didn’t hate you when Sir Ismael was in the midst, did he?
Ev
Well, no
He went really hard on me then, too
Tony
So, in the presence of two different Doms, he goes as hard on you as you want him to, and you’re still wondering what the solution to your problems is?
