Page 37 of Regal Feather

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Okay, Ev. As I said, I’m sorry I hurt you

I think your friends are right to be angry with me

I am, too

caged_pig

What does that mean?

Sir Ismael

It’s not important now, is it?

You are ending things, aren’t you?

caged_pig

I’ve deleted my account in the app we met. It’s not about you

Sir Ismael

I understand

Will you just, before you block or ghost me (I’ve been around long enough to know that’s coming)

Is this really what you want? Step away completely from the BDSM lifestyle? Forever?

caged_pig

I think it’s the responsible thing

Most of my friends are into kink, but I think they’ll still want to hang out with me

Sir Ismael

I’m sure they will

What triggered this? I know you said it wasn’t just me, but

I’m trying to make sense of it. Usually, I’m much better at telling who is going to step away after a bad scene or after things get too serious

caged_pig

Everything is just a lot

I just feel like everything is getting away from me, and I’m underwater, and nothing is within reach, and D/s used to be the one thing I could count on to help, but maybe it was just an illusion, and I need to master the basics before I even think of trying again

Sir Ismael

Okay

Anything I can do to help?

caged_pig

No

I just have to “man up”

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