Page 116 of Regal Feather

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Regardless, I think your friends may be onto something. Maybe the two of you are perfect on a relationship level, and adding someone else when everything's so fresh and he's working through trauma will only hinder it, but having someone part-time, once a month, even, might help anchor both your needs

caged_pig

Both our needs?

Sir Ismael

Your need to become a thoughtless slut covered in cum, and his need to please

caged_pig

You think he has a need to please?

Sir Ismael

Usually comes with the territory of being a service anything

caged_pig

I suppose

I'm just so anxious every time now, like I'm going to push him further away no matter what I do

And I don't know what to do

When he gets close to me, I want to melt into it, but what if he's doing it because he thinks that's what I want and that's it?

Makes me want to throw up

Sir Ismael

Because you're not a shit person

And I'm guessing you'll have to wait until that therapy appointment to get an answer to some of those questions

caged_pig

I'm not great at waiting

Sir Ismael

I know

I'm sorry things aren't going the way you wanted, for what it's worth

caged_pig

Yeah, and I'm sorry it didn't work out between us, and that it got so messy

I should've been better at communicating, I was just so focused on being the perfect sub

Sir Ismael

You were the perfect sub

caged_pig

Thanks, I guess

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