Page 79 of A Christmas Break
With Finn, hopefully.
He hadn’t moved my hand away, so I took advantage of his momentary silence. “If this is going to feel like our house and not me being your lodger again, then I need to do that. And maybe sometime in the future, we can see about getting a joint mortgage. I have some savings. I can give you half the deposit you paid.”
He stared at me, and for a second I wondered if I’d gone too far. It was a big step and maybe I was jumping the gun a bit, but I wanted him to think about it. It’d never truly feel like my home while the house was in his name only.
I let my hand fall, but before I got too far, he snatched it up in his, linking our fingers. “You sure?”
I swallowed.
My dad had told me repeatedly that I should wait at least a year before moving back in with Finn, but my mum had told me to follow my instincts and my heart. And that’s what I was doing now. Everything in me told me this was the right decision.
“Yeah. I’m sure.” I licked my lips, finally saying the words I’d been dying to say for a while now. “I love you.”
His smile was blinding. “I love you too,” he whispered, voice catching. “I think I have since the minute you suggested we let off steam by having sex.”
I laughed. “I have the best ideas.”
“You do. But mine aren’t so bad either.”
“That’s true.”
“I have one now.”
“Oh?” I pulled him close and wrapped my arms around him. “Does it involve nakedness, your bed, and lube?”
He pressed a kiss to the side of my neck, nuzzling up towards my ear. “We should go shopping in the morning.”
“What?” So not what I thought he was going to say.
“To buy a new bed.” He kissed me again and I almost forgot we were having a conversation. “Then it’ll be ours and not just mine.”
Warmth flooded through me and I smiled up at him. “Yeah, I’d like that.”
“And after that we can go get your stuff and move you back in.”
“So soon?”
“I don’t want to wait. Do you?”
I shook my head because no, I really didn’t. “Tomorrow sounds perfect.”
He buried his face in the crook of my neck, hot breath making me shiver. I felt his cock, half-hard against my hip. “Now you’re thinking about nakedness and lube, right?”
“Yeah.”
I stepped back, tugging him after me. “Let’s go have celebratory sex. I want you to fuck me.”
He grinned. “You win. Your ideasarethe best.”
“They are.” I led him up the stairs to what would soon be our bedroom and our bed.
In our house.
I couldn’t take credit for us, though, and neither could Finn.
This whole thing had started because of Cole’s suggestion, one I’d been dead against to start with and so had Finn.
Spending December living together had changed our lives, and now I couldn’t imagine Finn not being in mine. Didn’t want to.
This year when we picked a tree and decorated it, it wouldn’t be because he was trying to cheer me up, but because he loved me and I loved him.
Tonight, we started our life together, sharing a house, as partners this time.
And I couldn’t fucking wait.
