Page 26 of Cyber
Turning my head, I peered over my shoulder in the darkness. “I’m sure you’ve been in bed with plenty of women, Cyber.” I didn’t know what made me say it. Jealousy. Curiosity. Bitterness. Whatever it was, it showed in my voice.
“I've never spent the night with a woman, Iris. I've never held one in my arms and not fucked her. And I definitely don't hang around afterwards.”
“I know.” I didn't even try to keep the bitterness from my voice that time.
His sigh was loud in the quiet room. “That's not what I meant, Iris, I wish you would believe me about that.” Pulling me closer to him, I couldn't help the gasp that lodged in my throat. Cyber’s cock throbbed against the curve of my ass. Hard as rock.
He didn't seem to notice, but it was all I could think of. My mouth was suddenly so dry it was hard to swallow.
“It doesn't matter,” I finally managed.
“Yes, it does. For fuck’s sake, Iris. It matters. I didn't visit you that weekend to get closer to your dad. I came because I liked you. Because I was a wide-eyed kid who couldn’t get you out of his head. I still fucking can’t,” he mumbled. “And I sure as hell didn't leave because I killed your dad. I left because I was called back. I should have said goodbye, hell, there's a million things I should have done differently that night, but I can't change the past now.” He sighed. “But I do want you to know the truth.”
“They told me you killed him.”
“I know. Jesus, baby, I know. But I want you to know the truth. I'll admit that your dad was on our radar, that I was told to look him up, but we don't assassinate accountants. And I definitely don't make a habit of falling in love with a target’s daughter...” He trailed off as if he’d realised what he had said.
The room was suddenly as still and silent as a tomb. You could've heard a pin drop. “You loved me?”
I felt him shrug behind me. “Maybe. I don't know if I'm honest, Iris. I felt something for you that might have been love. I don't have anything to compare it to.” His voice was terse.
“I could have fallen in love with you as well,” I admitted. It was the truth. I could have. If things had been different. Maybe I even had been back then. Maybe that's why I had spent years hating him so hard.
“There's still time.”
“Cyber,” I whispered.
“Don't we owe it to Violet to at least try and be a family?”
It was obvious that he had given it some thought.
“Violet might not...”
He didn't let me finish. “She's mine, Iris. Her star shaped birthmark? I have one as well. It's hidden by all my ink now, but it's there. We can have a test or whatever when we get her back, but I know she's mine.” His grip on me tightened, his breath blowing against the back of my neck. “And you know as well. I think you've known for a while.”
I didn't say anything to that. What could I say? Yes, I had suspected every time I had looked at my daughter that she was his. Especially as she grew from a baby, he was all over her face, in the curve of her smile, the shade of her hair. Everyone said she looked like me but I had seen nothing but Cyber.
“I just want a chance to be in her life. Both of your lives.”
“Cyber.” I tried and failed to say his name. It came out more like a squeak. “I have to concentrate on getting her back. If tonight has proved anything it’s that…” I gave a little scream as his huge hands turned me, pressing my shoulders into the mattress. Even in the darkness I could see his eyes shining.
“Wehave to concentrate on getting her back, Iris. Let me prove to you that I can be a better man than the one you remember.” The pad of his calloused thumb pressed against my lips which parted instantly, the tip of my wet tongue coming up to lap against it. I don't know what made me do it, but he groaned loudly.
I recoiled in shock. I hadn't meant to do anything so sexual. It just felt like the natural thing to do. Even after everything that had happened to me, my body reacted to him. It was kind of unfair on the both of us because Cyber had been right when he had said I wasn't ready. My disastrous date proved that.
“Cyber, please don't push this. I will do anything to get Violet back. ANYTHING.” Without thinking, I reached up to cup his cheek in my hand. “There isn't going to be a happy ever after for us. We aren't going to be a family. I just want my daughter back.”
His eyes closed for a second. “I want that as well. I want you both safe and happy, but that doesn’t mean I'm ready to give up on us.”
“There is no us, Cyber. There was never us. There was just one night that ended up with death and a baby in my belly. That doesn't mean there was ever an us.”
“There could be an us, Iris.”
I sighed, letting my hand drop and turned my face away. “You couldn't even stand to be in the same house as me yesterday. What's changed?”
Cyber groaned, falling onto his back at my side. “That’s what I needed you to think, not the truth.” He barked out a laugh. “Fuck, Iris. I had to send you away. I couldn't be near you and stay objective. It was too hard. It sure as hell doesn’t mean I don't want to be close to you. I always hoped that I would see you again.”
“And how many women have you slept with since I've been back in town?” I couldn't help it and I didn’t even try to hide the jealousy in my voice.
