Victor started shaking his head before I was even done talking. “Dawn, I told you I looked this up. I did not tell you when. As soon as you agreed to be my girlfriend, I started making these marriage plans for us. Because I wanted you in my life. I had hoped to give you more time to feel the same way. I thought four years in college would be enough. But we no longer have this much time…”
To my shock, he slipped to one knee in front of me. “My father told me I had to choose. But it wasn’t a choice. I’ve chosen you from the start, Dawn. I will always choose you. I love you so much, Dawn. And I want to protect you. Forever. Please say you will let me do as I wish. Please say you will be my wife. I am sorry I don’t have a ring.”
More tears clogged my throat, making it so I couldn’t talk.
And Victor translated my silence as my answer.
“I understand you are scared of me after what you saw downstairs, but—” he began to sign.
He cut off when I launched myself at him, tackling him to the floor.
“Yes!” I shouted. “Yes, I’ll marry you!”
Then I kissed the hell out of the most romantic boyfriend on earth.
No, there was nothing I could say to make him believe me. But I could show him. I could show him that what I saw tonight, as horrific as it was, didn’t matter.
I still loved him, just like he still loved me. And I didn’t care who he was before he gave up that life. I just wanted to be with him, just liked he wanted to be with me.
Maybe he understood what I was trying to say. He kissed me back. Ferociously. Like I was the dinner we’d both missed.
This wasn’t a repeat of what happened this afternoon. He didn’t unwrap me and guide me through the steps and wait patiently for me to adjust to what was happening.
He engulfed me like an out-of-control fire. My shirt buttons went flying when he ripped it open. He tore it off my body along with my blazer. And he yanked my bra off over my head as opposed to simply undoing the clasp.
He paused just long enough to unzip his pants and put on a condom. But then he fell on top of me in his bloody suit, an animal in a total frenzy. He pushed up my uniform skirt, yanked aside my panties, and shoved himself inside of me with a loud groan.
This was more overwhelming than anything I’d ever experienced. But my body welcomed him. I wrapped my legs around his waist, taking him in even deeper. And far from just lying there, I pulled at his shirt, hands scrabbling until I found skin I could touch. I wanted him to know I had him, that every part of me was touching every part of him.
I didn’t care about my own pleasure. I didn’t care if I came. I just wanted to give him what he needed. Whatever he needed after this crazy night.
And what he needed was to claim me. Low, keening animal grunts fell out from his mouth as he took me with desperate thrusts. His body was so heavy on top of me. I couldn’t move anything below my neck. I could barely breathe.
But it didn’t matter. I stroked his hair as he fucked me so hard and whispered in his ear. I thanked him for choosing me. I promised that I’d love him forever and ever.
It didn’t take long after I told him that. He let out a guttural yell, and his entire body went rigid right before he emptied into the condom.
We lay like that, wrapped up in each other. Breathing. Forgiving.
I no longer cared about what my parents would think. I just wanted to be with him. I felt crazed, like a didn’t need food or water. Just him. But eventually, he lifted off of me and signed, “Let’s sleep.”
I followed him into his bedroom, and there, we shed the rest of our clothes. The bloody suit and my school uniform skirt fell to the floor, and we slipped under the covers to snuggle the same way we had that afternoon.
As I drifted off, it almost seemed like everything that happened after I woke up was a nightmare. Just a little nightmare. It would all be okay, as long as Victor and I were in each other’s arms.
He woke me up with a gentle shake just a few hours later, though.
He’d turned the light on, probably so I could see when he signed, “I want to try sex again. I will go slower this time. So you can have an orgasm like before.”
As excuses to wake up your girlfriend in the middle of the night went, his wasn't too bad.
