Page 65 of Friends That Heal Us
Her brows crease as she sees my smile growing. “I’m assuming good?”
I nod, staring at her, but then I drop my smile and say, “I’m not back with my husband.”
“Oh.”
The last thing she heard was my husband cheating, and I haven’t told her anything else. It’s been hard not talking to anyone about what’s been going on with Ezra and me. Rya used to be the one I would go to for everything. I wasn’t sure if I could trust Haley, but after everything she’s been doing for me, I go ahead and tell her everything. From the beginning of my childhood friends until now. Once I get to the part of Rya and Zayn, her eyes grow wide and her mouth parts.
“Holy shit. You’ve been going through all that?”
I nod.
“That is a lot, and you’re handling it so well.”
Then I tell her everything about Ezra. “Without him, I would probably be more of a wreck.”
“So are you and him together now?”
“We’ve been acting like we are. But my feelings are all over the place. I’m worried this might not work out between us, and it ends our friendship. I can’t handle losing someone else. But I do nothing to stop it. I continue on with him as if we’re together.”
“How does he feel?”
“He wants us to give it a chance, but he understands I need more time. He also doesn’t want to stop what we are doing now, so we’ve been taking it day by day.”
“What do you want?”
“I’m happy with him, but I’m worried we’re rushing into this.”
It almost makes me feel guilty for having these feelings for him and guilty for second-guessing everything. It feels like I’m healing from Zayn because of him and not doing it on my own. And how will that make me heal properly for myself if I have him? But is it also bad for me to heal while being in a relationship? There’s so many things that feel conflicting, and all it leads me to is being scared when I sit and think about it too much.
“Do you want something with him?”
“Right now, yes. But I’m worried I’m only feeling this way because I’m so hurt.”
“There’s no right or wrong way of doing anything that brings you happiness, and he seems like a good guy if he’s been there for you and is giving you time to figure it out.”
“He’s been the best. I just don’t want this to be a rebound situation.”
She shakes her head. “After hearing about you two’s past, I don’t feel like this is a rebound. Rya is a bitch for doing what she did. Sounds to me it should have been you two long before her.”
It’s like we’ve been living Rya’s life instead of our own.
A gentle smile settles on my lips. “Thanks. Talking about it has helped.”
“Of course. I’m here anytime.”
She gets up from her seat and walks over to me, wrapping her arm around my shoulder and pulls me toward her for a few moments. “I need to take off. Let me know what day you decide to open so I can blast it all over social media.”
Not only did she help me decorate this place, but she also created an Instagram page and is marketing the bakery on there. “Are you sure you don’t want me to pay you for any of this?”
She smirks at me. “No. This is fun for me. I love decorating.”
“I feel bad.”
She grabs her purse, shaking her head. “Don’t. I enjoyed every bit of this.”
I give her another hug. “Thank you for everything.”
“You’re welcome.”
