Page 86 of This I Promise You

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shattered the bowl of my porcelain sink

from the weight of my heavy heart.

but it's nothing…

…to keep on playing the music loudly in the back of your mind,

avoiding what you know.

avoiding me to cause a scene, to cause a scene in my dreams

of a story that once was, that will never be

again…left with my thoughts.

no. no, please

confront me, babe,

confront us, babe,

so we can be together again, babe.

my mouth is always running…away from the thought that initiated this very moment,

the very moment you were gone,

gone from me like the light of the sea when the sun set in your eyes

the very moment i was alone…

…and here I am suffering as if i’m confused about how i feel about life, yet i know exactly how i feel about you.

from watching raindrops in my dreams to catching them on the sheets of my cold and empty bed as tears spill out,

out of…time.

that one time where you once begged me to lay my head next to you

has me tormented in the center of the earth's calmest hurricane.

i should have cherished it more

now that you’re gone,

which is ironic because i have destroyed everything about us in one swift blow

cause what i did to you was vicious.

as i try to be strong, every item that glistens in the sun on the sea

reminds me of what we were supposed to become.

ashes in the burning sands

glass between my hands

and i am swirling red wine that tastes like the blood of my lost love story because…

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