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“Since you did so well with everything today, and you just admitted to enjoying it, we’re going to trysomething.”

My heart began to pound as I tried to think of what he could bethinking.

“Do you have that little bottle of lubricant that I gaveyou?”

“Yes,” I nervously said and glanced at thenightstand.

“Good.” Russell paused for a moment, which made me more nervous. “Ryan, this isn’t going to harm you.Understand?”

What was he talking about? What wasn’t going to harm me? And I didn’t understand because I didn’t know what he was talkingabout.

“Ryan, trustme.”

“Okay. I trust you,” I confirmed. And I did. I trusted Russell more thananyone.

“Set a towel down on your bed, undress, and bend your knees so that your feet are flat on the bed,” heinstructed.

Um.What?

I retrieved the towel and laid it down on the bed. I was already shirtless, but pushed my shorts down and stepped out of them before I got back on the bed in the position hedescribed.

“Okay,” Isaid.

“Allset?”

“Yes, I thinkso.”

“Ryan, relax. Put some lubricant on your index finger and press it against your hole.”Jesus fucking Christ.“Let me know when you’ve donethat.”

I swallowed hard as I put the lube on my finger, then tossed the bottle next to me on the bed. As I pressed the finger against myself, I lay there quietly, thinking. This is weird, isn’tit?

“Ryan?”

“Yes, sorry.I—”

Shit, I said that I was sorry. I quickly regrouped, took a deep breath, and startedagain.

“I’m doing what youasked.”

“Good boy. Move your finger around theexterior.”

I found myself moving my finger slightly in a circular motion. Actually, it was more like I was just rolling the pad of my finger around. But I was nervous to think of what might come out of his mouthnext.

“Russ—” I had to speakup.

“Relax, Ryan. I just want you to feel it. All we’re doing is feeling the outside,understand?”

I nodded my head and quickly said, “Okay.”

“Good boy, Ryan. Balance the phone on your shoulder, spit on your other hand, and take hold of your shaft.” I did as he directed. “Stroke up, take the time to rub under the crown. Are you hard,Ryan?”

“Yeah,” my voice wasraspy.

“Good, Ryan. Stroke up and down slowly. Feeleverything.”

I was definitely feeling everything and I was ready to come. Today was all coming together and making sense now. He edged me all day and more tonight with thevideos.

“What do you need,Ryan?”