Page 166 of So This Is War
“Of course, anything for my girl. Are we okay with you being the one who broke? Are you excited about what’s happening? Do I need to be gleefully clapping my hands and fawning over your new relationship?”
“Yes to everything,” I answer. “This feels . . . it feels like it could be something, Sandie.”
“If you feel that way, then nurture it. Don’t let your worries or fears get to your head because I know you’ll have them.”She knows me so well.Because, deep down, I do fear that I’ll go all in, and he’ll grow bored of me. That I won’t be good enough. That he’ll get his fix and then leave.
But my fears are something I need to battle because I trust Levi.
“I’ve already started having them,” I admit.
“Well, stop it,” she says. “You deserve this. You deserve a man who’ll care for you and support you. Lift you up. Soak him up and enjoy every second. Who knows, maybe he’s the one.”
I smirk and let out a sigh. “Is it weird that I’ve thought about that? We’ve barely been around each other, but something about him makes me feel like we belong together.”
“I can see it. Mark my words, I think you’re going to be Wylie Posey.”
“Oh my God.” I roll my eyes. “Please, one step at a time.”
“And what would the first step be?” she asks.
“Go to bed with him tonight.”
“Well, then, good luck and report back. Also, I’m happy for you, Wylie.”
“Thanks.” I blow her a kiss and hang up. I then stick my phone in my basket of things that I’m taking to Levi’s room and head out of the nanny hole and down the hallway, through the kitchen and toward his bedroom where he meets me halfway down the hall.
I chose a simple pink tank top and matching pink shorts to wear to bed tonight, and he’s already in his briefs. He smiles as he approaches and places a gentle kiss on my forehead.
“I like what I see,” he says.
I give him a once-over. “I really like what I see.”
He chuckles. “Going to double-check the locks. Make yourself comfortable, and I’ll be right back.”
While he heads toward the main living space, I move into his bedroom. I’m immediately transported back to the club with the black walls and furniture and carpet. But whereas the club felt almost cold, in some respects, Levi’s room is comfortable.
I set my basket down and take my charger and cell phone to the unoccupied nightstand. I feel weird slipping into his bed without him, so I wait. Thankfully, he’s quick and when he walks into the bedroom, spotting me just standing next to his bed and not climbing in it, he questions me.
“Everything okay?”
“Yes,” I answer. “Just waiting for you.” I pull on my bottom lip. “Last chance to change your mind about me being here.”
“Change my mind?” he says as if it’s the most insane thing he’s ever heard. “There’ll be no changing my mind. I’m dead set on this. If you chose not to sleep here, I’d follow you straight over to your twin bed.”
I chuckle as he moves to his side and climbs in. He holds the sheets and bedding back for me, but I don’t move right away.
“That would be quite the sight, you in my twin bed with me. Bet your feet would hang off the end as well.”
“They would.” He pats the mattress, but I don’t move. He sits taller with a confused look on his face. “Everything okay?”
I twist my hands together. “Just nervous.”
“Why are you nervous?” he asks.
“Because I like you,” I say. “And that freaks me out. I haven’t really liked anyone in a while. And you made me come hard, and that freaks me out as well because I really only know what an orgasm is from my own devices. It was rare a partner gave me one. And you’re really, really hot, which freaks me out as well because I’ve never been with anyone as tall or attractive, or well-endowed as you.” His smile stretches from ear to ear. “And I realize that you could have any girl you wanted and?—”
“And I want you,” he says as he moves across the bed and tugs on my hand, helping me join him in bed. “I want you, Wylie.”
“Are you sure?” I ask on a wince.
