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He was about to leave when I grabbed my robe, threw it on, and stopped him by closing my door before he could exit. He looked down at me with fire blazing through his eyes as my robe peeked open. I didn’t fix it. I didn’t know why; maybe because I wanted him to see me, I liked seeing how I could take him down with just my body.
He reached down and grabbed the straps of my robe and tied it shut as he skimmed my sides. Once my robe was closed, he rested his hands on my hips and looked down at me with his tired eyes. I didn’t know what to say to him; frankly, I didn’t know what to do.
“You have practice in half an hour; no workout this morning,” he said gently, as he looked me in the eyes. “Be careful, Lo.”
He leaned down and pressed a kiss against my forehead and, for some odd reason, it felt like he was saying goodbye to me.
“Wait. What’s going on, Kace? Are you leaving?”
He shook his head no. “I can’t leave here, not now. Not when . . . well, I’m not going to get into it, but just be careful, okay?”
“I don’t understand.” I searched his eyes.
Kace leaned against my door and ran his hand over his face.
“Jett is a powerful man and can suck you into his web very easily. I’ve seen girls get completely lost in him then get let go. I have seen Jett destroy girls, and not on purpose. He has always been up-front with them, that there is no love involved, but they always think they are the girl to change him. They’re not. The only reason Babs and Pepper are still around is because they have no ability to have an emotional connection when it comes to sex. Unfortunately, you’re not like them. You can easily get lost in him.”
“That’s not true,” I countered. “I have self-control.” I said the words but they have no weight behind them, especially since last night I was willing to give Jett everything.
“I know you do.” Kace caressed my cheek and then put his hand against my heart. “But you have a beautiful heart, Lo, and that’s what’s going to kill you. I mean, look at you now, you promised yourself to Jett last night, but you still want to make sure I’m okay. You still want to have a connection with me and it’s because of this,” he rubbed my heart. “You’re beautiful and have a sweet heart that is incredibly admirable and attractive.” My heartrate picks up from his compliments, my skin blazing from his touch. He continued, “I just want you to be careful; tread softly when you’re with him because I can’t stand to see you get hurt. I know this is what you think you want, but I don’t think it is.”
“Why don’t you let me be the judge of that, Kace?”
He nodded his head in agreement. His hand caressed my cheek one last time before he turned and left my room, leaving me more confused than ever.
What the hell?
I was able to separate my heart from what I was physically feeling. I was able to do that when I was with Rex and just fucking him for money. Yes, I enjoyed his company, but I never fell in love with him. I can easily separate the two, how is Jett any different?
I pressed my lips together and thought about last night and the feelings that I woke up with this morning, completely satisfied . . . and happy. Shit, maybe Kace was right, maybe I did need to watch myself, because after one night with Jett Colby, I was ready to commit my body to him for life.
Feeling a little unsteady, I walked back to my bed and sat on the edge as I looked at the new bouquet of ranunculus resting on my nightstand. I grabbed the letter and read it again, as I flopped back on my bed. It wouldn’t hurt to at least enjoy this moment, I thought to myself, as I pictured Jett in my head and read the note twice more.
There was nothing to worry about.
At least that’s what I convinced myself to think.
Chapter Twenty-Four
“American Woman”
GOLDIE / LO
“Here, Lo,” Tootse said, as she handed me a towel to wipe the sweat off my drenched face.
Pepper was relentless today and, I swear, I could do this dance in my sleep by now, but it would be the first time we would be doing the presentation in front of the members and she wanted it perfect.
Kace sat in the back working on his computer and looking over at us occasionally. I was still unsure as what to do with the little conversation we had in my room this morning, so I dropped it, instead of overanalyzing everything. I knew what I was getting myself into when I came here, and I knew what was expected of me. If I got burned in the end, then it would be my own damn fault. Jett said we are always honest with each other, so I get that.
“Girls, can we line up one more time, please?” Pepper asked, as she clapped her hands to get our attention. “I want to go over the end once again, then we’ll be done.”
We all nodded and got into position. The beginning ofAmerican Womanby Lenny Kravitz came over the speakers and we started moving to the beat. Pepper had us all inches apart and moving together in one synchronized wave. We twisted apart, bent down with our legs spread and then worked our way back up while moving our hands across our bodies, enticing the audience, well the fake audience.
When the song ended, we all walked off the stage to the back of the curtains.
“Good,” called out Pepper. “That was perfect. You can all come back out.”
We joined Pepper on the stage to find her writing something down in her notepad. Probably dance moves, she has an entire book full of them.
