Page 19 of Eleanor & Grey
“You noticed?”
“Honey, I’m sick, not dead. Plus, we really need to have a makeup lesson because the way you curled your eyelashes was a bit wild.”
I laughed. “I just wanted to, I don’t know, girly up a little.”
“Wearing makeup doesn’t make you a girl. Were you wearing makeup when you first met him?”
“No...”
“Then there’s no need to wear it now, unless you want to. Do things for you, Ellie, never for others. He obviously liked you just the way you were.”
My stomach flipped as I fiddled with my thumbs. “He’s the complete opposite of what I thought my first crush would be like.”
“How so?”
“I don’t know. I thought I’d go for a nerdy type, or an artist, or a musician. Greyson is popular.”
“You say it like he has an STD,” Mom joked. “People like him—so what? That’s not a bad thing.”
“Yeah, but it’s not just people; it’severyone. He could have any girl he wanted, so it’s hard to think he’d want—”
“No.” Mom placed her hand on my knee. “We don’t do that. We don’t put ourselves down.” She combed my hair behind my ear and placed her hands on my cheeks. “Not only are youbeautiful on the outside, Eleanor Rose, you are stunning on the inside. You are creative. You have the best laugh I’ve ever heard. You are kind, giving, and brave. Don’t ever think you aren’t good enough based on what the magazines define as beauty. You. Are. Beautiful.”
Mom always did this whenever I slipped into my random teenage doubts.
It was easy for me to not feel beautiful in a world of prom queens, yet my mother was always reminding me of how worthy I was.
I was a lucky daughter.
“Plus, it sounds like you caught his attention with your looksandyour mind,” she commented. “That’s the most important part.”
“Can we just not tell Dad? He’s a bit dramatic about things like this.”
“Your father has never shot a gun in his life, but I feel like you having your first crush would be enough to push him over the edge, so I’ll keep it between you and me.”
“Thanks.”
She started to reply but broke out into a coughing fit instead. She couldn’t catch her breath for a while, and my gut filled with worry. When she stopped, she shook her head. “I’m fine, Ellie.”
I heard her words, but sometimes I felt like they were lies just to keep me from hurting. I had a feeling moms would do anything to keep their children from feeling any form of pain.
I rested my head on her shoulder as we stared out at the water and watched as three dragonflies flew by. “He readWesley Peters, all five books, because I told him we had nothing in common, and he wanted to make sure we did.”
Mom’s eyes widened, and her mouth dropped open. “He read your favorite series?”
“Yup.”
“Eleanor?”
“Yes?”
“Marry this boy.”
5Eleanor
I wore my dragonfly cardigan when I headed over to Greyson’s on Tuesday. It was what I’d been wearing the first time we talked, and I figured maybe it was a good luck charm. I went with no makeup, because that didn’t matter, and also I was tired of poking myself in the eye with the mascara wand.
As I walked down Weston Street, I tried my best to tame my nerves. It was just us hanging out, anyway, not a wedding.
