Page 60 of Deserving Ryleigh
“They gave me one of those birth control things they put under your skin. An implant. I’m nervous about having sex, but I want to try. With you. You won’t hurt me, and I think you’ll make it okay. Even my first time. As I said, I’ll probably suck at it, but if you teach me what to do, I’ll get better.”
“Breathe, Ryleigh,” Tiny ordered, even as every inch of his skin tingled with electricity. He was ready right this second to take her by the hand and drag her to his bed. But she was obviously nervous, and he hated that. “You’re damn right I won’t hurt you, and I have no doubt you’ll be just as amazing in bed as you are with everything else youdo. We can wait until all this crap with your dad is over and?—”
“No!” she said with a frantic shake of her head. “I don’t want to wait. We have no idea what he’s got up his sleeve, and there’s a chance he’ll do something to mess this up too. He’s already taken too much from me. I don’t want him to take away the opportunity to show you how much you mean to me as well.”
“We don’t have to make love for me to know how much you care,” he said gently.
“You…you don’t want to?” Ryleigh asked uncertainly.
The fingers that were still wrapped around the back of her neck tightened. “I want to,” he told her, his voice raw with desire. “There’s nothing I want more. But you’ve waited a long time, I don’t want you to rush into something that you might regret later.”
“I won’teverregret letting you be my first,” she said, honestly and firmly.
She humbled him. Tiny wasn’t sure he deserved to be her first. He was sure he didn’t deserveher, full stop. He’d been a dick to her, had mistrusted her, had actually been downright mean. And yet she still forgave him.
“I’d be honored to be the first man you make love to,” he managed to say.
Ryleigh smiled. It was almost blinding. “When? Tonight?”
Tiny wanted to laugh. It was so like Ryleigh to want to schedule when she would lose her virginity. “Maybe,” he told her. “Let’s see how today goes. I want to make sure the mood is right. And if you’re stressed out over whatever your father says, it won’t be.”
“I thought guys always wanted sex,” Ryleigh said with a frown.
“Some do. But I’m not one of them. I want to make sure it’s perfect for you. You’ll only have one first time, and I want it to be a positive experience for you.”
“Okay.”
“Okay?” he asked, wanting to be sure they were on the same page.
“Yeah. But you should know, my dad has taken so much from me…a normal childhood, my mom, friends, a life…he’s not going to take this as well.”
She was so strong. Tiny admired her so much. “All right. How about a kiss to seal the deal?” he asked. He’d been staring at her lips for the last five minutes, and it was all he could do not to fall on her. Thinking about Ryleigh giving her virginity to him, being the first man, theonlyman, to see her naked, to get inside her…he was hanging on to his control by a thread.
“Yes. Please,” she said with a smile, then she was leaning toward him. One of her hands landed on his thigh to brace herself as she lifted her head to his.
Their lips met, and this kiss felt different to Tiny for some reason. It felt like a promise of things to come.
His other hand came up to rest on the side of her head as he speared his fingers into her hair. He tilted her head slightly, so he could get deeper inside her mouth, and he showed her exactly what his cock was going to do when they got around to making love.
She moaned low in her throat, and her fingers dug into his thigh, making his cock press against his jeans painfully. All she’d have to do is move her hand a little to the left and she’d feel for herself how badly he wanted her.
Tiny lifted his head, and he loved the dazed look in her eyes. Her cheeks were flushed, her lips plumped from his kiss. She was as aroused as he was, from a simple kiss, and he could hardly believe she was willing to trust him with the gift of her body.
“You good?” he whispered, running his hand over her mussed hair.
“Yeah. You?”
He grinned. “I’m more than good.”
She returned his smile.
They stared at each other for a beat before Tiny took a deep breath. “Let’s get this over with, huh?”
Ryleigh nodded.
Tiny forced himself to drop his hands, but after she turned her chair back toward the table and had pulled the laptop closer, he put one hand on her thigh. He needed to touch her. Needed to stay close. He’d never felt this kind of need before. Not for sex. But to be as close as possible to another human being. Had he ever felt this way toward Sonja? The woman he thought he loved and was going to marry? No, definitely not.
Ryleigh’s brow furrowed as she concentrated on logging into the dark web and pulling up the chat area she and her father had been using to communicate.
