“Try to enjoy yourself tonight,” Miranda says, giving me a friendly elbow bump as we walk along the wet sand and away from the Idol girls. Idols. What a pretentious title. Who started that tradition, I wonder. “Creed said you could be here; they’ll leave you alone for now.”
Miranda’s really trying, so I force myself to stay positive.
“Thank you, and you’re right. This is the first party of the year. And really, it’s beautiful out here.” I wait for her to turn away and then pour my drink out in the water, enjoying the surprisingly warm waves and the moonlight on the horizon.
We spend most of the night chatting and walking along the shore, a little bit of it dancing next to the bonfire. After a little while, Andrew joins us, and even though he’s in the Inner Circle and supposed to treat me like I’ve got the plague, he dances with Miranda and me both, until we’re sweaty and laughing, and I’ve forgotten that my dress keeps riding up my ass crack.
Close to midnight we make our way back to the school, and Miranda and I part with a hug outside the chapel. It’s easier for her to get back to Tower Three by taking the path that winds between the buildings. So, with my borrowed shoes in hand, I make my way barefoot down the stone halls, only to pause when I see Ms. Felton and the Vice Principal, Mr. Castor, standing in front of my door.
“Marnye,” he says, voice and face grim. “We need to have a serious talk with you.”
“What? Why?” I ask, seeing my dreams at Burberry Prep go up in smoke before they’ve even really begun. I can’t go back to Lower Banks High with its crumbling gymnasium, dinosaur-age computers, and outdated textbooks. Not after I worked so freaking hard to be here.
“We had several people call the emergency line saying they’d seen you drinking heavily.” My mouth pops open, and this wave of injustice surges through me. What the hell?! Me, drinking? I was the only person not drunk at that party.
Wow.
So … it’s not cool for me to report Zayd and Tristan to the administration, but they can report me all they want?
“I …” Words escape me. I’m so blown away by the accusation that I have no idea how to respond. Crude laugher sounds at the end of the hall, and I turn to see a group of students watching me, still dressed in their bathing suits. Creed is among them, leaning against the wall in a deceptively casual pose, but it’s all there in his eyes: the reflection of my doom.
I turn back to Ms. Felton and Mr. Castor. In the vice principal’s hand, I see a device that I well recognize: it’s a breathalyzer. Because of my dad’s issues, I know them well. He used to have to breathe into one to start his car. There were a lot of mornings when I was in elementary school where it didn’t start at all. I love my dad, but he spent a lot of my life fucking things up for both of us.
“I’m going to have to ask you to breathe into this,” Mr. Castor says, his voice hard but not unkind. Ms. Felton doesn’t say anything, arms crossed over her suit. I’m surprised to see her all dressed up still, considering the hour. Mr. Castor’s wearing gray sweats and a clean but oversized white tee.
My eyes water so bad that I have to close them to keep the tears from falling. It may not seem like that big of a deal. I mean, just breathe in and show the world that I’m not drunk. But … I’m doing everything I can to not end up like my mom and dad. There was this one time when I was seven that both my parents were so drunk that I thought they were dead, lying comatose on the carpet in the Train Car. We didn’t have a phone at the time, so I walked almost two miles to the convenience store to ask the clerk to call 911.
Being accused like this … it’s devastating.
I nod, and Mr. Castor hands over the breathalyzer, waiting for me to exhale into it.
When I’m done, I hand it back to him and he watches the lights on the front side. Zero. My blood alcohol level is zero. Mr. Castor’s face flushes, and he hands the breathalyzer over to Ms. Felton.
“I’m sorry, Marnye, but with as many accusations as we received, we had to look into it.” I nod and glance back down the hallway to see Creed staring at me with slightly widened eyes. The other students are whispering behind their hands, eyes narrowed to slits, venom in their glares. But Creed, he looks pissed, like I’ve committed a grievous personal attack against him.
