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“Like you waking up with my cock buried inside of that tight little cunt of yours,” he says before kissing me.
“I swear, I could get off on just your dirty talk, I think,” I say and he laughs.
“Thank you for trusting me,” he says seriously.
“In all honesty, I shouldn’t. We’ve known one another for less than a week, but something about you just… fits. I have no hesitation with you, even if I’m triggered by something,” I explain.
“Do you know why?” he asks.
“Because you are nothing like Enzo. You are level-headed. You aren’t arrogant. You are just… You. You empathize with others in a way he would never be capable of replicating,” I explain. “I just know in my gut that I’m supposed to have you by my side.”
“Can I say something that is admittedly way too soon to be mentioned?” he asks and I nod my approval. “For my entire life, I refused to consider getting married. I didn’t date because I didn’t want to get someone’s hopes up for something long-term, knowing it wouldn’t be. But when I met you… I tried to keep up that wall, but I couldn’t”
“What do you mean?” I ask.
“What I mean is… I can picture a life with you. All of the fears I had before of turning out like my father vanished when I met you. I tried to convince myself otherwise, but the moment I looked at you, I knew.”
“That’s the sweetest thing anyone has said to me,” I say. “Also the weirdest when I consider how long we’ve known one another.”
“Does that bother you?” he asks with a chuckle.
“Not at all. I honestly don’t think I could picture my life without you in it. The fact that Kaia hasn’t said a word to me to indicate any doubt she may have just solidifies those feelings I have.”
“She did threaten to kill me though, if that counts for anything,” he says as he steps into the shower and pulls me with him.
“Ah, yeah. I assumed she would,” I laugh.
Matt takes to washing my hair and body before I do the same for him. I like taking care of him just as much as he likes to do the same for me. There is something about the way he relaxes when I have my hands on him that fills me with pride.
Once we are done showering, we go to bed. I turn to face Matt and snuggle close as he holds me. Falling asleep in his arms is by far the best feeling.
Chapter Twenty
Mattia
Eight Weeks Later
The last two months have been amazing. Aurora is completely moved in now and we have been essentially inseparable. She goes out with Kaia for lunch or a girl's night a few times a week. She finally feels safe enough to go out and do things with Paul, Rita, and Enzo in jail.
She was officially diagnosed with Hashimoto’s, which is an autoimmune disease. It affects people differently, but it helps explain the vast majority of her seemingly random symptoms. At this point she doesn’t need hormone therapy, so diet change is going to be her biggest priority. She occasionally goes to the gym with me, but I don’t think I’ll ever get that girl to go running with me.
When her story hit the news, it hit big. Really, it’s still big. Even though Paul and Rita took a plea deal for a reduced sentence, Enzo has decided to go to trial. He is determined to get out of jail since the judge denied him bond. Aurora was elated when his bond was denied because it meant that he couldn’t get to her.
She never got a rape kit that night so she has already been prepared for the fact that he stands a good chance of walking away from this without it. Aurora seems to be accepting of that. She even told the district attorney that she didn’t even care about the charges if he would just agree to stay away from her. His lawyer refuses to let him talk to anyone though.
She has gotten extremely close to her parents. She talks with them every day and we have dinner with them at least twice a week. Generally, it’s once here and once at their house. She is still cautious of her brothers, but they have found ways to do typical older brother shit and tease her without getting close. Their favorite thing to do is to poke fun at her height. A few weeks ago, Sterling started calling her ‘short stuff’. She acts like it annoys her, but secretly she loves how they dote on her.
Come to find out, they blame themselves for her kidnapping. Dax explained to her that the day she was taken, they were giving their Mom a hard time and distracting her. He said she turned away to tell them to stop roughhousing and when she turned back, Aurora was gone. They all went into counseling after her kidnapping because they had a hard time coping with it.
Since the night she and I first had sex, we have done anything and everything except one thing. I have not woken her up by fucking her. I know she wants me to, but I think the longer we wait, the less likely she will become triggered. I know it’s not right of me to assume things when she has told me countless times that she’s okay with it, but I want to make sure I can handle the possibility of her getting triggered. She has a safeword for a reason.
Last night she called her safeword when she got triggered. She said that it hit her out of nowhere, and that was the moment I knew we were ready for that. She had a problem and addressed it immediately, whereas in the past she would fight it until she was nearly in tears and I stopped without her calling it. I must pay attention to the non-verbal signals because she may freeze up. If I can’t pick up on these things, I have no business touching her.
This girl is amazing! It’s not even all about the sex though. She is just an amazing person. From how she talks to clients to how she will help a random stranger load their groceries because it is about to start raining. She could be having the worst possible day, but when Kaia calls her to vent, she will drop everything to be there for her friend no matter what.
I’ve been up for a while now. I went to the gym and came back for a shower. Aurora is asleep on her belly and sprawled out on the bed. The moment I get out of bed, she always goes full starfish and takes up as much room as her little body can manage. I pull the covers off of her and she doesn’t move.
I can’t say that I’m surprised. She sleeps like the dead. I’ve also been getting her to go to bed naked, so I know she’s aware of my plan for her to wake up to me balls deep in her. As long as she wakes up and isn’t triggered, I have big plans for how to make this day memorable for her.
