Page 39 of Watch Her Bleed
“You are going to drive me insane, tesoruccia,” he says as he presses his thumbs into the bend of my hips. I gasp when pleasure surges through my core, making me crumble and lay my forehead on his chest. “Understand that no matter how much I want to show you what it means to be pleasured by me, I won’t touch you so long as you are hurt. I won’t be what causes you pain, no matter how much I want to make you mine in every way I can.”
“Fuck, what was that,” I pant.
“That’s called payback for teasing me, tesoruccia,” he says with amusement in his voice. “Understand that every time you tease me, I will match whatever you do, but I won’t touch you so long as you have his bruises on you. Okay?”
“Never did I think I’d be in this position,” I mumble and he chuckles.
“Sitting in my lap or horny?” he asks and I laugh.
“I don’t know how you did it but you broke through every layer of protection that I’ve ever put up to protect myself,” I say.
“Likewise,” he says as the front door opens.
“Fuck,” I say as I go to move.
“Shh. You’re fine,” he says softly.
“Hey,” Luca says. “Whoops. Didn’t realize we’d interrupt.”
“You’re not,” Matt says. “You two staying here?”
“Oh yeah,” Milo says. “We’ll take the couch so the girls can have the guest room.”
“Something tells me Aurora won’t be with me,” Kaia says as she sits beside us. I still haven’t sat up or moved. I’m battling with embarrassment, even though I know I have nothing to be embarrassed about. “What’s wrong, Rora? You’re abnormally quiet for me teasing you.”
“I’m just being dumb,” I admit.
“How?” she asks.
“I feel like I should be ashamed that…” Matt grabs my face and makes me sit up and look at him.
“That shame is a product of your trauma, not reality,” he says. “The only person in this room judging you is you and that is entirely because he has made you feel undeserving of someone else’s comfort.”
“He…” I start to say but stop.
“He what?” Matt asks. “Clearly this is stemming from something specific.”
“The first time he came into the apartment unannounced he walked in on me having sex with someone,” I say. “The result of that was… awful. He caused me actual damage that time like it was my punishment for allowing anyone but him to touch me. When they walked in I felt I should be ashamed at minimum.”
“Well… I think it’s hot. Feel free to continue,” Kaia says with a grin.
“You wish,” I laugh.
“God, do I,” she winks.
“Fuck, I won’t complain,” Luca says as he and Milo sit.
“You all are dirty,” I say and Matt smiles.
“I don’t know about Kaia, but they’re nosy,” Matt says.
“You mean they like to watch,” Kaia says.
“Well, I wasn’t going to put it that way, but yes,” Matt says.
“For some reason, that’s not as terrifying to consider as I thought,” I admit and Matt raises an eyebrow at me.
“Didn’t expect for her to be a dirty little thing, did ya?” Kaia says to Matt and I smile. “Despite what you may see right now, she’s not all trauma.”
